Forever an Actor~

This is the end...

All of the gang ended up in the waiting room with me. All I could think about is if she died. Johnny, ponyboy, and Elizabeth all keep me grounded. They are the reason I live. My dead beat father would abuse me. Make me take drugs and do all his dirty work. Once I got out of New York I came here and the gang helped me out.

As I pace around the room, Johnny was crying in Darrys arms. This is my fault. I should have stayed with her. I should have talked to her the night before she left.

"Elizabeth May" one of her doctors called out. We all stood up as she walked over.

The doctor gave us pleading eyes, and I knew what was coming. My heart started to race.

"Elizabeth was taken into surgery for a collapsed lung. We did everything we could to fix it, but we lost her."

My head was spinning, vision going in and out. My breathing picked up and I felt like I was dying. I just lost the girl I love. I look around and see Johnny collapsed in ponyboys arm, both of them crying. Darry hugged soda tight, trying to to cry and stay strong for everyone. Twobit and Steve, well they had tears in their eyes while they blankly looked at the floor.

I can't live without her, I just can't. I took off running out of the hospital. The rain was cold and harsh on my skin as I ran to bucks. The entire time my head was clouded with dark thoughts. When I got to bucks, I was out of breath. I walked behind the counter and grabbed the strongest thing I could find.

(Darry POV)

She's dead. That the only thing on my mind. How could someone do beautiful be dead in an instant. When the doctor came out and told us the news, everyone started to cry and collapse. It felt like my parents died all over again. She was like a little sister to me.

As I looked around the room at the boys, I knew I had to hold myself together. After my parents died, I went off the deep end. I did drugs, drank everyday all day, robbed stores around me, got into fights. I needed to feel something, but I knew it was wrong. I remember pony had to make sure I would eat and get sleep. Sodapop always put me to bed when I blacked out. I can't let anyone see me like that or go through that again.

Dallas ran out once he heard the news. I know that he is going to be rough to deal with through all of this. God knows what trouble he is going to get into tonight.

Soda is crying in my arms, Steve and two are just looking at the floor. Pony is holding together right now but I know when he is alone, he will break down even more. Poor Johnny is crying on the floor with pony. Him and Elizabeth were inseparable. They got along so well and were always smiling when around each other. I can tell that Johnny had a true connection with someone, but it was different than with any of the gang.

After awhile of being in shock, I decided we should all get some rest. I carried Johnny whole soda grabbed pony. They both cried themselves to sleep. I had Steve drive the truck with twobit, while Sodapop and I took Dallas car with Johnny and ponyboy. I climbed into the back seat and had Johnny sleeping on my lap, while soda drove and pony was in the passenger seat.

"I can't..." Johnny mumbled in his sleep. I began to stroke his hair, he seemed to get less tense.

When we got to the house, Johnny and pony were placed in my bed. Two, steve and soda slept in the other room. The couch was left for Dallas to sleep on. No one said a word, they all just went to sleep. I however stayed up all night waiting for Dallas to get back, or to at least know he is alive. The phone began to ring....

"Hello?"

"He Darry, I have Dallas here." It was buck.

"He drank a lot and I'm closing up. I think it's better if he was with you. Also, I'm sorry for your lost." With that he hung up. It's still hard to think that we will never see her again. Not her smile, eyes, nothing.

I got in the truck and drove to bucks. As I got there I walked in to get Dallas. He looked life less. I know he is hurting and drinking is how he solves his problems. I picked him up off the floor and placed him in the truck. The drive home was short and painful. I was starting to break, but I refuse.

Dallas was placed on the couch. I grabbed a beer and sat in my chair, thinking about how everything would be now that she is gone.
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(Dallas pov)

She's gone... forever.... How am I going to live now. Johnny is going to die without her, hell I think all of us are. He smile brightened up and entire room, her body was amazing, she was beautiful. I wanted to give her a life she didn't have. A life where she was safe and protected. But at last I failed again.

"Dallas..."

"Dallas wake up..."

I opened my eyes and saw Elizabeth. I was in shock. Wait....

"Dallas, you need to listen to me. None of this is your fault." She looked at me and placed a hand on my face.

"It is, I couldn't save you" I choked out a sob.

"Dallas my love, you did save me. You got me out of that house. You protected me from myself and the world. It may not look like it, but you really did save me."

"How am I supposed to live without you, I love you" the tears wouldn't stop at this point.

"You won't live without me, I'm always going to be there for you and with you. Tell Johnny that I am in a better place. Tell the gang they are forever my family and I will miss them. Tell Darry that I thank him for everything and will see him in his dreams, to guide him in life." She started to walk away.

"Oh and before I go, I love you too Dallas"

With that she was gone....