Finding Tine Teepakorn

Chapter 22: I found the blue file

Tine's POV

My alarm clock started to ring at 6.30am sharp, but I was up long before that, all because this really heavy guy had chosen to climb on my side of the bed and practically sleep over me. I couldn't feel my arm and my neck was already cramped up. Is this how people change when you decide to marry them?

Sarawat and I used to sleep clumped up like this in our college dorms when we only had a single bed in our rooms. Now, I lived in a huge apartment with a king size bed, and yet, here we were clumped like our college dorms all over again

"Sarawat.. you need to move.." I whispered. But instead of moving away from me, Sarawat put his arms around my neck and hooked me. I could feel the coldness of his engagement ring that I had given him yesterday on my shoulder, and if he wasn't practically suffocating me, I would have actually liked it.

"God, Sarawat Guntithanon, get away from me."

"sl—eepy." He murmured.

"I know you are sleeping, but you are almost choking me Guntithanon, let go."

He chuckled and buried his face in my neck. "And here I thought you would be into that."

This assh*le.

"You are awake? You idiot!" I pushed him away with a big thud.

"Ouch, that hurt, Tine." Sarawat finally opened his eyes a little bit.

"Well, the feeling is quite mutual. You practically slept over me Wat."

Sarawat laughed again and pointed his finger at me. "Well, you were the one who told me to come on top of you last night."

"Hey! That's not what I meant and you know it!"

"Why are you changing your mind now that its morning, Tine?"

"I didn't ask you to come on top of me last night to literally sleep over me, Wat. And what is with that arm hook? God, I could hardly breath."

"I just—" Sarawat suddenly looked down. "I have been scared you might get bad nightmares or memories, or whatever they are. So, I thought I would hold you tight and sleep to help you."

And just like that, all of my anger and all my irritation had suddenly melted. How could I ever be angry at him?

"I am sorry. I didn't know that Wat."

"Its okay. I guess I'll just try to not hold you that tightly. And you anyways haven't had any bad nightmares, so that's a good thing right?"

"I guess? I am not sure. I still get more memories in my dreams but they aren't good or bad — they are just normal, day to day stuff."

"Do you think you will ever be able to recover all of your memory?"

"I—I am not sure, Wat. And honestly, I have made my peace with not remembering everything. May be somethings are best forgotten you know?"

Remembering all of my memories would be I would turn into Old Tine, and I am not sure if I was ready to handle all of his pain sadness yet. The pain of willingly breaking up with Sarawat just to protect. The pain of breaking apart from the entire family. The pain of losing his best friend but never really letting it go.

"May be you are right Tine." Sarawat spoke up. "But wouldn't it be nice to remember everything that happened in the last three years?

"I don't know, Wat. Hey, its still pretty early, why don't you sleep some more and I'll go take a shower or I might get late.

Sarawat was still sleeping when I got dressed for office. I put a light kiss on his cheek and that finally woke him up.

"You are leaving, already?"