The smile that left your eyes

Part 9

I turned to get into my flat and saw Jimin standing at his door. He walked towards me.

God! Please let me have some space.

"I'm sorry y/n ah. Believe me, I was so angry that I was unable to control myself" he pleaded.

"You didn't continue that therapy for your anger issues, did you?" I asked him remembering the therapy he used to take back in those days.

He looked down fiddling his fingers.

"I need to go," I said and went inside my house only to be welcomed by lavender smell.

My mother was cooking something but the food smell didn't even reach to my nose as the whole house was filled with the lavender smell by the candles.

"Are we in church? What are these candles?" I asked her sitting on the couch.

She didn't hear me as she was in the kitchen. I leaned back and closed my eyes for a while.

"You're here? Get freshen up. The food is ready" she said sitting beside me.

I scooted aside as it was my habit but I didn't know it would offend her.

"Why are you moving aside as if I'm a stranger? I'm your mother y/n" she glared at me.

"Then don't you know I'm allergic to lavender smell?" I said as I closed my mouth and ran into my room.

She was sitting on my bed when I came out from the bathroom after a big vomit session and a long bath.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that. I've removed all the candles" she looked apologetically.

We both went to the dining table and took our seats. She served me some food and served it for herself. We started eating. I didn't know she can cook well cause my maid ajhumma was with us since my birth.

"Did you like the food?" She asked me and I nodded. I'm not a picky eater.

"Namjoon looked good. He grew up so well" she said chewing her food.

"Yes"

"You both look good together"

I choked on my food and drank some water

"He is married," I said and sighed.

"Oww, we missed a good catch. Don't worry, let's see Taehyung" she said and I glared at her

"I clearly told you I'm not interested in these dating and marriage things" I stated again. 

This is my umpteenth time telling her this thing.

"Why are you being like this y/n ah? Can't you see your age people dating, getting married, and having kids leading a happy life? Is it too much for me to ask you this?"

I'm done with this shit.

"It's my life to decide whether I should do these things or not. I've already done many things for you even if I don't like them" I raised my voice. 

She makes me lose my ethics. She looked at me bewildered.

"Okay. Do as you wish but at least tell me what's wrong dear. You can talk to me about it"

"Why are you asking like this all of sudden? It's so weird seeing your care for me"

"I do care for you y/n. I'm your mother" she shouted at me.