The smile that left your eyes

Part 24

Jungkook POV:

"I love someone else"

Well, this shattered my heart more than anything. I knew this yet hearing this from her made me go numb. I was silent. I didn't reply to her. She kept searching for my eyes to make proper eye contact.

"Kook, please talk to me" her voice was trembling which made me look at her.

Here she is, crying after breaking my heart.

"Why the hell are you crying?" I asked her.

She kept looking at me. I could sense she was scared of hurting me but what's the use now.

"It's me who should be crying now," I said.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry" she kept repeating it until I held her shoulders.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked her.

She nodded.

"Did I not love you enough?" I asked.

"Kook.."

"Why can't you consider my feelings sunbae?" I asked her again.

She shook her head, crying.

"Why do you keep going to the person who might hurt you again"

"Anyone didn't hurt me. I mistook everyone and I'm trying to make it right" she tried to explain to me.

"I didn't mean to hurt you Jungkook, but you can't keep being like this" she wiped her tears.

How should I be without her? All this time, she's the only thing that kept me moving. I had no one so I never got any motivation in my life. But after I met her, my life changed. I found a new meaning in life...I wanted to live for her and make her happy. I thought she'd move on soon and understand me but the time I approached her again, the remaining two guys came back too.

Life became total chaos.

"How should I be?" I asked her.

"You should move on, live your life happily, find someone who loves you-"

"Stop it" I yelled.

My tears were non stop and my vision was blurry. I walked to the couch and sat down.

"You can't avoid the reality Jungkook" she raised her voice.

"You can't be like this. This isn't what I expected from you" she added.

"What did you expect from me? To act as nothing happened?" I raised my voice too.

She sat beside me and kept her hand on my shoulder.

"I love you so much," I said looking at her.

"I'm sorry" she replied.

"Don't say sorry when you don't mean it" I yelled at her.

She flinched but didn't react. She was silent so did I.

I got up and went to the balcony.

Why.. why do these keep happening to me? Why does she push me away? Can't she take me once? Am I too hard to love or is she too deep in love with that 'someone'?