The smile that left your eyes

Part 21

"I want to take therapy from you," I said to Namjoon.

Jimin was about to say something but Namjoon gestured him to stop and asked me

"And what made you take this decision?"

I took a deep breath before answering.

"I want to fix my health. I can't keep passing out like this whenever I hear or face something difficult" I replied to him.

"Okay, and?" How did he know that I had more to say?

"I know I wasn't well before meeting you guys and even now. Just because you all are here for me now, that doesn't mean I can be weak and lean on. I have to stay strong"

"And ?"

"I want to fix things in my life and that includes my health too. I want to stay strong for anything that I need to face in the future. And.."

"Go on" he signaled to me.

"Now that I saw Jimin lying here yesterday, I came to understand what you all felt seeing me lying helpless" I lowered my head, fiddling with my fingers.

"You're sure, right? I can't begin without your acceptance" he asked me again.

"I'm sure Oppa," I said sternly.

He showed me his wide dimpled smile.

"Glad that you took this decision sweetheart. I'll definitely give you my best treatment and make you the old strong and healthy y/n" Namjoon held my hands and smiled at me.

I sighed and smiled at him.

Just then Namjoon got a call

"Patient's call. I need to take this" he said showing me his mobile and left the room. 

I kept looking at the door when I felt something soft on my cheek.

It was Jimin. He pecked me.

"Thanks love. Thank you so much for accepting to take therapy" he said smiling, nearly tearing up.

"Since when did you become this emotional?" I asked looking at him.

He smiled at me. His smile, his eyes which held only love, and his gestures. I missed them all. How did I even live until now without seeing him around me?

"I'm sorry Jimin" I apologized to him again.

"Uhh..again?" He frowned.

"I had to say this. I left you for nothing. I feel so ashamed of myself" I closed my eyes to control my ready-to-fall tears.

"Please don't be, even I'm sorry for what I did" he replied to me.

I looked at him.

"I didn't talk to you when you asked me cause the day when you called me, Leena was on her death bed" he muttered.

His voice came low, and he didn't look at me.

I lifted his chin to look at his eyes.

"I should've waited for you. I didn't know you were in such a situation so I insisted on meeting you then and there" I said and he shook his head.

"I myself pushed you away with my stupid insecurities. I was always afraid of you leaving me for some other girl. So when I saw you with Leena that day, I thought you found someone else" fresh tears rolled down my face.