Eclipse ; Draco Malfoy

Chapter Forty

d r a c o  m a l f o y

Dearest Drakey,

I had watch you grow, every single day.

I was so curious on what's going on inside your mind. As I watch you walk down the corridors of Hogwarts every day, I can see a boy who's broken inside. A boy who doesn't have enough memories to produce a patronus.

I can see right through your eyes a boy who had no choice. Now, I want to know every single detail of where your bitterness is coming from and I know you're not wicked, you're just broken.

There was nobody quite intriguing than a boy who has platinum blonde hair, walking with his chin up, chest out, and his lips curled as if the world was against him. And that is you, my ferret.

Now more than ever, I want to know every inch of you. I want to understand your side. I want to fix you. Some witches and wizards wanted everything this world offers but all I wanted was to understand you by finding cracks through your cold surface. And I did.

You taught me that love values your happiness over mine and probably makes decisions based on what you want.

You're the reason why I started to believe in true love because the world was made in pairs. The sun and the moon, the darkness and light, land and sea, peace and chaos and many more things in pairs. And I believe in true love because if everything was made with pairs, then somewhere in this vast, lonely world is paired for me; the missing piece of my soul. And it's you, Draco.

Whatever happens with this beautiful story of us, I want you to know that there wasn't a day, an hour, a minute, or second that I didn't choose you. There was never a minute when you were the second choice, never. And I will love you until my very last breath. In this life, next life, another life, any life. I will love you until the last beat of my heart.

It is you. It's always been you, Draco. And one day, it will be you and me, together, dancing alone under the starry skies. When no one's telling us what to do. Toasting to forever.

I thought we are stars that are never meant to align and it's funny because you are a Slytherin and I am a Gryffindor; complete opposite.

We are supposed to hate each other, be mortal enemies. We got sorted into our houses, where we should embody its traits, defining us at the age of eleven. Gryffindor are told to be brave and chivalrous while you are told to be cunning and ambitious. And maybe, just maybe if it wasn't because of our houses, our love story could have been better.

I hated you, yes, for bullying my friends. But aside from that, I couldn't see any reasons to hate you. I told myself to hate you, I tried, but it didn't work.

I tried to push you away but your cunning personality ruled over you, making me yours. I tried to avoid you but at the end of the day, I always found myself coming back in your arms again.

And that stupid night, I didn't regret that. The more we talk, the more my heart beats in exhilaration. And it made my heart pound faster when I knew we share the same love for Astronomy.

That night, I forgot all my problems and all I could see is you and I, just us, alone, sharing the same skies. And your coat, the coat you covered me when a cold breeze blew, it was still inside my wardrobe, hugging it whenever I feel alone and lonely and I don't have any plans on giving it back to you.

I never intend to hurt your feelings. I never wanted to push you away. It was my lips that betrays me every time. I don't know what happened that made me feel that way, but there isn't any valid excuse for that.

I am very emotional and knowing that I'm fighting with you gets me to the point of crying and yelling, because it hurts. And I totally understand that bad times are part of this journey called love. And please, every time you think of those arguments we had, remember that you are part of me and I couldn't imagine living without you.

When you became a Death Eater, I don't want you to feel bad because of me. When you hurt, I hurt, and I'm sincerely sorry for that. I should have understood you more.

Your arms are my only solace. You are the first thing I think of when I wake up and I am looking forward to a life where I will wake up next to you, little Malfoys in between, not needing to fantasize because you will be there, right beside me, right next to me waiting for the nightfall where you are the last person I'd see before a deep slumber.

I love you with all my heart, body, mind and soul. My skin aches for your touch. My ears can't live without the sound of your voice and I shiver every time you let go of my hand. My heart pounds whenever you lay your eyes on me. Every inch of my body is in love with you, with everything that you are. Whether you are the Draco I met and the Death Eater Draco I still love and I would always love.

You probably don't have the right mirror, so you can't see yourself the way I look at you, but what I see is different from what the world sees you. But neither of those matters because I love you and there is no need to be insecure and jealous of anyone.

I can't tell you enough how much I have changed with you. But it's not the bad kind of change. Instead, you made my dreams clearer. And that is spending my entire life with you.

Even though I thought you are the last one I would fall for, I'm extremely grateful that I actually did. You made me realize how wonderful my fantasies can be when it became real.

I know you are not a mind reader but in my mind, plays the same scenario I always fancy for. You and me, white gown and tuxedo, little Malfoys, laughing and loving. And after this chaos would be start of our fairytale that my imagination plays for me every single day. We will prove them they are wrong.

I love you always and forever, to infinity and beyond.

Yours forever and always,
Aurora

"Wherever you are, I hope you're happy with our baby." I whispered. "I love you too, Aurora."