Love, Hart [Discontinued]

thirteen

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RUBY

Sleep and I have been strangers for the past nine hours.

My mind has been running non-stop, forfending me from closing my eyes and shutting down and getting a good night sleep.

Expect the worst.

Was the only thing I told myself all night.

When Aspen promised he wouldn't ignore me anymore I had gotten my hopes up. But I quickly let those hopes die because he had yet to keep that promise.

His actions will determine whether or not he was
lying.

I was tired of acting like old friends one day and strangers the next. It was confusing-he was confusing.

And I wanted to understand him.

I wanted to know him.

Slowly I crawled off my bed and checked the clock that hung lazily above my door, 11:17am.

Agnes has been nagging me about being more punctual about work.

Im not a very punctual person. I suppose I could set an alarm, but when I first started working Agnes told me it didn't matter what time I came just that I came everyday.

And I have yet to up hold my end of that agreement, so starting today I'm going to attempt to be at the library daily unless I really can't be.

Key word: attempt

I went to my bathroom and cleaned myself up, taking a much needed shower and a very much needed hair wash.

As my hands are tangled in my hair-scrubbing harshly I closed my eyes and let my mind drift back to the encounter my brother and Aspen had.

At the end of the night Aspen walked me home and I was so tired I could barely even keep my eyes open.

By the time we had finally made it to my door it was extremely late and my brother was waiting for me in the foyer. I was shocked but Aspen had his same blank stare.

Alex (my brother) didn't like that very much. He was scowling the entire time and it had been an exceedingly awkward moment.

Although, Aspen didn't even bat an eyelash under my brothers glare. Which was good to know, probably made my brother even more infuriated than ever.

I got interrogated for a good 30 minutes until my brother let me go back upstairs and and sleep, but when my head hit the pillows on my bed, sleep didn't come.