Falling for my brothers friend || ksi

Chapter 32

I got up out of bed. My eyes still blurry. I rub them as I walked over to my bathroom and looked in the mirror. My eyes were swollen and puffy and the bloody tissues were still on the bathroom work top. I grab them to put in the bin as a blade falls out of one of them. I pick it up and put it back in the draw with my razors. I catch my waist on the draw as I shut it.
"Ow" I let out in pain.
See that's the thing it's so easy to keep it all secret as long as you never give anyone a chance to find out, you do it where they least expect.
I put on a hoodie and go over to JJs room. I open his door and see he is still sleeping, I here another door open as I look behind me and notice it's Josh. I give him a half smile as he comes over and hugs me.
"I hope you're okay y/n" he comforts me. "Im so sorry for how it's all played out and just know I'm here for both you, JJ and your brother"
"Yeah brother.." I say
"Y/n he's still your brother he still cares no matter how angry he is at the moment you're just gonna have to let him cool down for another day or two then youse are going to have to speak and sort everything out and that includes JJ" Josh tells me.
"Okay yeah you're right Josh" I replied. "Thank you" I say as he smiles then walks off down the stairs.
I turn back to JJs room and go climb into bed with him. He groaned slightly as I got in but then he placed his arms around me as I fell back of to sleep.
We both had woken up now and we're just sat chatting about the events of last night. I rolled over and grabbed my phone and I had a message of Josh telling us him, Vik and Simon had all gone out. That was a relief because it helped us to avoid bumping into Simon and Vik seen as though he's mad at us as well.
I turned over to JJ and grinned.
"What?" JJ said "Why are you looking at me like that" he said now getting nervous.
I bit my bottom lip as I grinned harder and showed him my phone. He looked back at me and grinned.
"We've got a free house" I smile.
"It looks like we do." He smiles back, leaning over and kissing me. I kiss him back as he pulls us closer together, the only thing separating our body's being our clothes. JJ puts his hands up my hoodie and tries to take it off. I stop and pull away from him.
"What's up?" He asks me.
"Nothing.."
"Come on I know there's something the matter"
"No it's not JJ, it's just that I'm cold" I say standing up taking off my underwear and leaving on my hoodie. I smile at him to try convince him I'm fine. I pull down his boxers and trace my hands over his body. I straddle on top of him and we started to grind our body's against each other. I felt him harden fully and let him enter me. I grabbed his arms and placed them round my shoulders as he was thrusting into me and I was bouncing on top. I traced his body and started kissing him, leaving wet kisses along his body. I'm getting to into it and forget what JJ is doing and he takes his arms and places them under my hoodie and grabs my boobs. I pull us closer together and place my head against his resting on his shoulder. I tip my head back and groan, "urgh JJ. I fucking love you so much"
"Did you just say you loved me while we were fucking" JJ laughs while panting.
"Shit yeah I just did" I laughed back at him.
"I love you too y/n, urgh fuck"
We were both close and his hands moved down to my waist to help guide me.
His hands kept going down further, "oh shit" I say "oh fuck" JJ let's out his hands going further down.
"Ow" I say getting startled.
"Are you okay yn? Sorry if I hurt you" he says looking at me sympathetically.
"Oh yeah I just had a cramp."
"Yn don't lie to me" he says looking at me in the eye pulling me over by my arm.
I look at him and then look to the side, my eyes tearing up. I look back and pull my hoodie slightly, to let JJ know it's alright to look.
He pulls my hoodie up to my waist and sees the fresh cuts from last night. I feel his hands trace around them and he kisses my body just next to them.
"Fuck yn" he says sounding disappointed.
"I'm sorry JJ, I know I shouldn't.."
"No yn I'm the one that's sorry" "you should know you can talk to me baby please don't ever, ever do this to  yourself again" "you have to promise me.."
"JJ I promise" I say locking eyes as we also lock pinkies. "Listen please don't tell anybody JJ as long as I don't do it again"
"As long as it doesn't happen again, I won't"
We hear the door go and we get dressed and head down and see Vik, Josh and Simon walk in.
Josh speaks up, "simons wants to talk to you JJ."
JJ nods and goes into the living room with Simon. I go into the kitchen with Josh and Vik, trying to clear things with them.

I'm so bad at uploading, I haven't uploaded since July and it's now October but hopefully I get another chapter out soon but also thank you for the love !!!