THE RISK OF FALLING

CHAPTER 3

Sunday, Famday :<

This was supposed to be a day to bond with my mom and dad, but that was before, yes I am all alone in this big wide house. What a shame.

I remember those laughs that we shared in this house, the smell of good food to fill in our stomachs that was made my beautiful, sweet and caring mom.

I can't understand either, back then my mom is so good to me it's as if I'm so fragile and she treated me like her only princess but the day dad and mom separated, the next thing I know, I just woke up and she don't love me anymore, pag nakikita niya ako parang sasabog siya sa galit.

Nakakatakot ang mga mata niyang nanlilisik.  I was physically abuse by my own mother.

The day my dad left home, they told me that he needs to work but that time I know that they are not okay, I heard them yell and hurt each other several times.

Naaawa ako sa sarili noong bata pa ako, they didn't know that I'm smart enough to understand and know what their situation and relationship really is.

The moment my dad left, that's when my mom change, she easily gets angry,  she remain distant with me. Hindi ko nga alam kung may ginawa ba akong mali.

Pero there are times that she's so kind but after some time she will again complain that her head aches so badly and after that she will be mean again.

But of course what will a 5 year old poor little girl do with that situation diba, Im too young.

The way my dad carry me through the air and pretend that I am an airplane. The way we play hide and seek and they always pretend that they cant find me, well in fact I was just there, beside them giggling. Good old days. I wish I could go back to those days, I really wish:>

Since it is Sunday, all I have to do is to stare at this empty house filled with good memories.

Although may bad memories din, I always prefer to look for the brighter side.

Tinatamad ako lumabas para bumili ng pagkain and luckily I still have some eggs and bacons on my fridge.

Alam kong di ako magaling magluto, pero duh kumalma kayo prito lang to. I can manage, I guess hehehe.

I decided to take a shower first before going downstairs to cook for my brunch, Yep brunch it is breakfast + lunch, god I'm that brainy!

After taking a shower pumunta nako sa baba para magluto, sobrang boring kaya naisipan kong magplay ng music. I just choose some random stuff on the radio.

"Di ko kayang tanggapin, yeah na mawawala kana sa akin, beybe. Napakasakit na marinig na ayaw muna sa akin" sumabay nalang ako sa music with feelings and dance and pikit pikit pa.

"Hapdi at kinirog ang binigay mo sa akin" hala teka mali ata, jusko gutom lang to, kaloka.

Finally, natapos din ang pagluluto ko at binilisan ko nang kumain dahil inaantok na naman ako. Linigpit ko muna yong mga ginamit ko saka umakyat para matulog.

At dahil maganda ako, binuksan ko muna yong TV bago ako natulog hihi. Wala lang, trip ko lang. And in just a minute I already fell asleep.

But before falling into a deep sleep, bigla kong narinig ang pagbukas ng pintuan ng room ko. I slightly opened my eyes. I cannot see clearly the face but I am sure it is a lady saying-- 

"Anak gising na, baby andito na si mommy" ano bayan istorbo sa tulog. She is talking to a little girl who is laying in my.. bed? wait, panong nangyare? How come this cute little girl suddenly laying in my bed? sht.