JenLisa : Escaping Us

Chick N' Chips 2

CHAEYOUNG's POV:

"Lisa!! Open the door! Mag-usap tayo! Please let me in!" sigaw ko sa pinto ng kwarto namin ni Lisa.

Walong oras na syang nagkukulong sa loob at dinig na dinig ko ang mga iyak nya.

"Leave me alone!"

"No! I'll stay with you! Just please talk to me. Please Lisa. . "

"I don't believe you!! Iiwan mo din ako! Katulad ka lang din nya! You all leave me!"

"Kailan ba kita iniwan?? Kahit na binabalewala mo ako nandito lang ako lagi sa tabi mo. Kahit na hindi mo ako pinapansin kahit nga para akong hindi nag eexist sa paningin mo. Nandito lang ako. The world might leave you Lisa but I'll always be with you." naramdaman ko na lang na tumulo na ang mga luha ko.

I feel so useless everytime Lisa feels so miserable. Masyado kasi akong nasanay na Lisa was the strongest kid among all the trainees, she never said no. She always tries her best. She always smiles. She always pushes me to go beyond my limit and chase down my demons to help me sleep at night. She's my saviour.

But who will save her now?? The star that Lisa follows so much has stopped shining for her. Leaving the biggest scar in Lisa's heart. Suzy Bae. You're such a witch!

Ilang katok pa nagawa ko saka ko dahan dahang pinupunasan ang mga luhang hindi ko na alam kung saan nanggaling.

"Stop crying Chaeyoung! Lisa needs you! Damn it! Kahit ngayon lang ikaw naman ang maging malakas. " saway ko sa sarili ko habang pilit kong pinuno ng hangin ang dibdib ko. Ayaw kong umiyak, ayaw kong marinig nya. Ayaw kong isipin nya na mahina talaga ako.

*click

I twist the knob and the door went open. Ang dilim sa loob. Naaaninag ko na din ang mga ngkalat na damit sa sahig. Okay lang ako na lang maglilinis mamaya. Good thing kaming dalawa lang ang natutulog dito sa kwarto. Kaya kahit anong gawin nya walang ibang taong maapektuhan.

Sinubukan kong kapain ang switch nang ilaw.

"Don't open the lights."

"Can I come closer?"

Hindi sya sumagot. Dahan dahan kong sinara ang pinto at hinayaang mag adjust ang paningin ko sa dilim. There she is. Sitting on the floor with her knees almost touching her chin.

"It's been a week now Chip. Pero hindi pa din siya nagpaparamdam. I saw her debut on t.v. too. Wow. She's really beyond my reach now" she sounded exhausted and I could barely hear her voice.

I quickly move my feet to run to her side. Saka ko umupo sa harap nya. I run my fingers to her hair. Same thing na ginagawa niya kapag hindi ako okay.

"You can be the next big thing Lisa. You can do it too. Ilang weeks na lang darating na din yung mga bagong trainees na makakasama natin--"

"Bagong pakikisama na naman. Bagong challenge na naman kung sino ang tatagal. Pang-ilan na ba to Chaeng? We've been living like this for almost two years now pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa din nila tayo napapansin. They let us live with different people then when we start to love them bigla-bigla na lang tayo iiwan." then she wiped the tears in her cheeks.

"You still have me, Lili. I really don't care if I'll debut or not as long as I stay right here with you. You're the only person who sees the best in me so I'll be that the very same thing that you needed too. Just let me be. Kahit kunwari lang. Let me love you."