AVENGERS / CAST IMAGINES

BUCKY BARNES | TRAITOR

Brown guilty eyes and little white lies
Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you.

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I always looked up to you. I always went to you for help, even when I knew perfectly well that you were talking to another girl. Sometimes, you would even come home with messy hair, but i didn't want to lose you, so I kept quiet.

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And ain't it funny
How you ran to her
The second that we called it quits?

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We weren't just friends, but we weren't together, because I was underage. You said that you would wait for me, but no. Unfortunately, our relationship didn't "work out", so you broke all the strings that we had. And after we officially "broke up", you called someone and went out the door.

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And ain't it funny
How you said you were friends?
Now it sure as hell don't look like it.

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We were in our couch, I asked if you had something with "that girl", and you said you were friends. But now, I see the opposite.

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You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter

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You've felt sorry for all the things you've done in your past, but it looked like you didn't even feel anything when you saw me hurting, after you've talked to her at the bar to get a drink to "forget the pain of your past", but when you came home, your words were slurred and you had lipstick in your ear. But I kept my mouth shut, and loved you instead.

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It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor

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After two weeks of the "break up", I saw you at our favourite ice cream bar, eating strawberry flavoured ice cream, holding her hand and smiling.

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Now you bring her around
Just to shut me down
Show her off like she's a new trophy

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Now, you bring her around the tower, showing her off like she's your own brand new vibranium shield. My smile immediately drops and my body feels empty, and the only weight I feel is my heart, aching and craving your touch, as the team looks at me, feeling sorry. Especially Steve, because he never thought that his best friend would even do such a thing.

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And I know if you were true
There's no damn way that you
Could fall in love with somebody that quickly

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It took you a year to fall in love with me, so why did it only take 3 weeks for her?

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Ain't it funny
All the twisted games
All the questions you used to avoid?

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Every time that Tony would make a party for a dumb reason, Natasha would always make us play truth or dare. You would refuse, but I would force you because it was a "funny game". Wanda would always ask you truth or dare, but you would always choose dare as a way to bounce away from the question that you feared they would ask.

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Ain't it funny?
Remember I brought her up
And you told me I was paranoid

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I asked you if you thought she was pretty, and you told me to "stop being paranoid, doll" and kissed my forehead. But behind my back, you took a peek at my phone to know her username on instagram.

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You betrayed me
And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter

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I was so blinded by my love for you, that I didn't even notice the red marks just below your v-line. But still, after you come home, feeling hurt because of the people judging you for your metal arm, I still loved you for who you are and supported you throughout your journey to becoming "normal" again.

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It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor

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I know we didn't even date, but it felt like it. After only two weeks after we "broke up", you found my replacement.

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God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you

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I wish that you would've thought if you really would wait for me, because damn, I believed you and fell hard, thinking that you would wait for me because you loved me.

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When she's sleeping in the be we made, don't you dare forget about the way, you betrayed me

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When you were sad, I really thought of a way to cheer you up. So, I noticed that your bed was a little ruined, and bought a new bed for us to build. It was full of happiness, and most of all, love.

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'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
You gave me your word
But that didn't matter

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You've never felt sorry for anyone but yourself, because you were the "broken one" here. When you'd go out to grab a drink, you'd wear a long sleeved shirt, with a few buttons open, I'd ask why you were going out like that. And you'd simply say, "don't worry doll, it's just hot outside,"

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It took you two weeks
To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still
You're still a traitor
Yeah, you're still a traitor

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In those two weeks, I've never felt more broken in my life. My heart was shattered like glass being dropped at the top of a 50 story building. My body felt so numb. I felt like a stuffed animal that would keep you happy for months or years, then get thrown away like I meant nothing.

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God, I wish that you had thought this through
Before I went and fell in love with you

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I really wish you thought this through, because you're the only type of glue that could fix my heart. But, when I see you with that girl, my heart becomes melted with hot, hot fire. And then, when I was isolated in my room, that fire spread throughout my whole body and burnt every remaining of me, alive.