Words Left Unsaid

Words left unsaid:Amber

I never thought I'd feel like this, fall for someone and care about them.

When your heart's been broken so many times ,you start to pose yourself.

A lot of the time I found myself wondering what it was like to actually feel something for someone.

I missed it though....

That rush of serotonin and dopamine whenever you see your crush,that temporary happiness was something I yearned for.

When everything was falling apart, I looked to love.

I thought that love would fix it or atleast distract me from all the pain.

I remember, just how badly I wanted that distraction but it never came.

I never understood it then but now I do, I wasn't in a place to properly let myself feel or love someone....

I look back on the girl I used to be and I'm glad she's grown.

Cause now I know that it was all worth it.

I'm ready now,I've done my healing,my shadow work.

I think that's what people forget about wanting love.

It's that you cant want it when you haven't acknowledged yourself.

And no I don't mean that love yourself bull but I mean when you look in the mirror and you actually recognise the girl staring back at you.

Flaws and all , you know who she is, you know what her flaws are and you're working on them.

I think that's probably one of the best times to start properly being open to love.

The moment where you've looked within and you recognise yourself, you actually know yourself.

Because it helps keep you grounded.

Helps you let go of those unrealistic expectations.

And to view realtionships in a more realistic view