Chapter 19:
TW: suicide
Willow's POV
Everyone stares in astonishment at the woman. I look at her carefully. Now I see me in her sightly. She has the same hair, the same curve of her mouth, same amber eyes. She sits down in another chair and tells her story.
"When I got pregnant with you, Willow, I was 17. I was young and struggling. My boyfriend at the time, your father, left me. So when you were born, I gave you up for adoption. I couldn't support you. But then, 4 years later, I met my husband and had Cecilia." she said, gesturing to the small girl. "Then, I wanted to take you back. I could support you now. But the orphanage told me that you had been adopted years ago. But I heard on the news about your school, and that you were at the hospital. I... I just wanted to see you, just once. I know that you'll want to stay with your new family. But.... I just wanted to see you." I'm quiet after that, and so is the cast of Heathers. I say softly, "I'm sorry, I want to stay with my new family. But you can always come visit me." She reaches out and hugs me. I hug back, and I see tears in Katie's eyes. Visiting hours end, and I'm left alone. I have my phone with me, and I decide to read some fanfiction. I found this fic written by a writer called chaoticgeek. And then that leads me to reading a book called Major Minority and screeching quietly about the characters. I plan to send this Emmy girl a dm the next day and give her some ideas.
A couple of days later, I'm released from the hospital and head back to school. But it's not the same. Classes are empty, teachers on edge. Flood loads of new students come in. Only a couple of them is cishet. The school says it's starting a new "diversity program" after the incident. But there are only 3 students who actually are here after that. Me, Kennedy, and Khloe. The funeral for Harper, Gabe, Jake, Avery, and so many more, passes. The next day, Kennedy stops Khloe in the hallway. "What?" Khloe asks, looking confused. Kenndy blushes scarlet and stutters, "Khloe um I know your acearo but will you platonically date me?" She looks relieved to get it out, and Khloe smiles. "Sure!" So Khloe and Kennedy were platonically dating now. But Sophie, my actual girlfriend, is still in the hospital, and I haven't heard anything about her.
You're useless
No, I'm not, I think, trying to block out the voice in my head.
Yes, you are. Look at you. You could have saved everyone.
I could've?
Yes, you could've. But you were so useless that you did nothing. It's your fault.
It's my fault?
Yes, it is. Stop trying to ignore it. It's your fault that everyone's dead. Your fault that so many people are hurt.
Stop!
You have to stop. I told you. Sophie's dying.
She is.....?
Why do you think you've had no news from her?
Just STOP!
Death is nice. Peaceful.
The voice stops. I shake myself slightly and head off. I'm heading home when the voice starts up again.
Hello you worthless girl.
Stop, I think.
Only you can make me stop
I'm not going to!
What if your girlfriend's dead? Want to join her?
Is she dead?
She might be. Come join her.
Fuck you. Just shut up.
You want to, I can tell. It's simple. Easy. Quick.
Who even are you? Why should I listen to you?
It's the right thing to do. It's painless. Pills.
I try to shake that little voice out of my head, but I can't. I keep thinking about what it said. Well, might as well follow its advice, right? I see the bottle of pills in the medicine drawer. Painless, the voice says. Well time to test that out.
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Adopted By Heathers
FanfictionWhen Willow is pinned against a wall by her abusive foster father, she never expected that she would meet her idols. Will she be able to meet and form a family with them, throughout drama, car crashes, and more? Or will her dream family fall apart...
