Best friend's bandmate ~ D.S (ON HOLD)

Shock, hugging and leaving

 “Excuse me?” I asked, not quite sure that I heard him right. He looked as if he could faint any moment.

  “You heard me. I love you. I know it’s really soon but I know what I’m feeling. It just wasn’t supposed to come out now.” I didn’t know what to say. He loved me? Wow, I knew he cared but I could never have guessed that it went so far to love.

  He looked at me with an expectant look. I stayed quiet.

  “Please say something.” He took a step towards me, I took a step back. He stopped, hurt covering his features. I shook my head and ran away from there before the tears in my eyes could fall.

  How could he say that? He can’t just confess his feelings while I was with someone else. That’s just not right. If you love someone you would want them to be happy, right?

  I slammed the door shut and threw myself on the bed. The tears were running freely and I was happy to actually be alone for once. It didn’t last long though.

  “Nikki? Are you okay?” Will entered my room and I, being so frustrated and confused at the moment, lashed out on him.

  “No, I’m not! Does it look like it Will!?” He looked at me with a look of sympathy. “Just get out!” I threw a pillow at him and he left the room, looking like a scared little puppy.

  Great, now I feel bad about Will and about David.

  I groaned and buried my head in the extra pillow on my bed. Can’t everything just work out? Why does it have to be so complicated? That’s when I remembered. The guys are obligated to be here, I’m not. I could leave if I wanted to. A friend of mine could be their opening act and she lives in Dallas.

  I didn’t need to think twice about it. Within 20 minutes I had my only bag packed. The only thing now was to break it to the guys.

  “Gabe?” I asked and entered the kitchen, where he was making some eggs.

  “Yeah?” He didn’t look at me and I waited for him to turn around. Since I stayed quiet he eventually did. “Is something wro…” He had spotted my backed bag. “Nikki, what are you doing?” He asked cautiously and took the pan of the stove. I shrugged, not really wanting this to take too long.

  “Uhm. I, I can’t do this. I won’t be able to play anything if I’m this confused at the moment. I have a friend in Dallas who can sing, Lana, you remember her right? And I know she won’t turn down an opportunity like this.”

  “Nikki, I hope you’re not saying what I think you’re saying.” I couldn’t speak. The hurt look in his eyes was something I had never been able to take, so I just nodded a little. Gabe sighed and slammed his fist on the table, making me jump. He sighed again and looked up at me. His eyes were filled with tears.

  “Why?” He whispered, sounding do vulnerable. 

  “I’m just really confused. I’m with Dana to try and get over David and then David tells me he loves me and… I don’t know what to do. I need to think.” He gave me a sad look but accepted it and hugged me. I hugged him back, wishing we would see each other sooner than we were supposed to.

  “Grouphug!” Someone shouted and soon another pair of arms was around me. I giggled and looked up to see who it was and regret instantly took over me. Dana noticed and let go, Gabe did too.

  “Is everything okay?” Dana asked and I shook my head no.

  “I don’t think this is working Dana. I don’t want to use you even if you know what you’re getting yourself into, it’s just not right. And on a side note; I’m leaving.” Dana’s face fell and he glanced down at my bag.

  “Oh.” I could see that he didn’t know what to say but I also knew that he didn’t have another choice than to accept it. He eventually nodded and gave me another hug. I was happy that I didn’t have to deal with that anymore and that we are friends again.

  I told Will and Cole but avoided David. I really did not want to deal with him right now. We were all sitting in the kitchen, just talking when the bus driver pulled up by the train station of Dallas. I looked at the others and we all hugged again. Then I left the bus and started heading to the train that was already there.

  I entered and found a place pretty quickly.

  With one last glance towards the bus a tear rolled down my cheek and the train started moving.

AN: Sorry that this was short x)