cries in neglectance | yjh • lsm

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Yoon Jamie

waking up, going to school, going back home, eating alone, and sleeping is basically my routine on the daily.

everything seems so dull, on the run, a kpop dance routine twice its normal speed.

i prefer songs that are calming like jazz or piano pieces, i also play the acoustic guitar. unlike the trend these days, that are obsessively on handsome men dancing, singing, and rapping on one stage. i contrastly prefer melodies made by older people that are either dead or on their death bed.

my bubble of thoughts were popped when i arrive at the bus stop, a block away from school. i enter the premisses with nothing in mind.

this might be my loneliest state yet. i enter my classroom with plenty of whispers yet they still dont bother me.

as for my partner in crime, lee jeno. he has stopped coming to school since last week, i guess his schedule got the best of him.

time passed quickly, and i didnt even notice that my first class was done.

damn ive been aimlessly staring at things for the past 40 mins.

this might be against my own will, but i decided to just cut classes and go to a nearby cafe.

i ask myself why go to a cafe when i would be doing school work here aswell? well jazz music is freely playing. i could just wear wireless earphones and do the same in school, but im too broke to have those.

how can i be broke when jeonghan is my brother, a rising star. well that soul i call my brother has been m.i.a for the past two weeks despite the fact that i moved.

with no help in moving, primarily just the house address given to me, the password reset on the front door, and car keys, i moved in alone like i just finished a legal battle with my non-existant husband.

give me a break please :-)