Teen girl, Chanel struggling after losing the two most important people In her life, her brother and Father. Stuck with an abusive mother driving her insane. Using drugs heavily. Stripping with her cousin to make any amount of money possible to skip...
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You know that feeling, that brings you joy? The one that makes you genuinely happy. The one that makes you stop questioning reality. The one that makes you feel pleased, and worthy. The feeling that doesn't make you want to die every 2 seconds. The feeling that makes you feel healthy and free.
You probably don't if you're not a drug addict.
Drugs give you an outing in reality. It makes you see and feel whatever you need to be happy with yourself. Drugs make you wanna live in its own made up world. So you keep taking drugs to stay in that happy world. Then there's drugs, the part of drugs that shows you reality in its true form. The reality that'll break you inside out, the reality that will have you thinking you're not worthy of anything in life.
Well whatever the fuck I just took was the 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘵 of both worlds.
I was in bed when I heard a knock downstairs. My vision was a bit blurry but I was able to walk, I headed downstairs to open the door and saw Evelyn cooking. She hasn't done that in years, so to see her cooking, it shocked me. When I got closer to the door behind it were two familiar voices.My hand was on the lock but I didn't open it, I thought I was going crazy. I stood there in pure shock looking at the door, and again the knock was there. Causing me to gasp and slightly step back.
I gave in and opened the door, just to see the 2 people that I thought were gone forever. I could feel my body start shaking and tears start running down my hot face. My world was put back together, but how could it be?
"Lucas?" I asked as my voice trembled. "Come on dads waiting for us outside, he's taking us fishing again." He had his genuine smile that everyone complimented him for. "Dads alive? You're here?" I was confused out of my mind. "Yeah we went to the store remember, are you ok?"
I couldn't believe my eyes. It's been longer than I could imagine without them. I jumped up in his arms and hugged him as hard as possible. Not even letting air in between us. Lucas was my heart and soul. Just to be able to see him again, and to touch him was a dream come true. I understand when people say your soulmate isn't always your lover.
I could tell he was confused and shocked by the sudden hug, by the slow reaction to hug back. Tears were still falling when I looked up to see my dad outside on a phone call. He caught my gaze and waved at me.I slightly squeezed Lucas and let go of him. I started running towards my dad to give him a hug. Me and my dad we're so fucking close from the day I was born. He never let me down even if that meant letting himself down.
I was 2 feet away from him when I heard Lucas constantly calling out to me. I was confused at first because he wasn't saying anything,as he went inside. I could still hear his voice but I couldn't tell where it was coming from, his voice surrounded me completely.
I started losing consciousness, and fell to the ground hitting my head so hard on the concrete pavement, my ears started ringing. My eyes started to blur as I looked up at the bright blue sky. My sight was interrupted, by my dad looking over me.
He was calling out to me and started shaking my body 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴.
I felt Ice cold water hit my face, causing me to sit up and start coughing from the deep inhale of water and air. The voice that once sounded like Lucas turned into the voice of Valentina.
Once I realized I was back in my room on the floor, with Valentina kneeling down in front of me. I realized that whatever the fuck I just took, is going to kill me sooner or later because I won't ever stop taking it if it means I get to feel like that.
"Baby are you ok? I tried calling out to you but didn't even move, I wasn't even sure if you were breathing." I couldn't even answer her question, by the ball stuck in my throat. My mouth started watering as I got up and ran to my bathroom. Lifted the seat and hung my head in the toilet bowl, throwing up everything within me.
Valentina followed me and sat on the bathroom floor with me, she wiped my face clean with a damp towel. And allowed me to lay on her chest. Valentina is my comfort nowadays. I don't know what I had just seen, or how long I was blacked out. But it was fucking shitty, to see an illusion of people I've have been wanting to see for the past couple of years.
Valentina held me close as she removed strands of hair from my face that were drenched in the water she splashed on my face. She was still in her stripper outfit so most of her body was bear and really fucking cold.
"I'm sorry." We both knew I took something I had no business taking. She sighed before even daring to look at me. "It's ok, just tell me you're gonna be fine Chanel." I know I wasn't. "I think I'm done, Vale." "Don't say that. You know I'm here right." She tried to encourage me but I already had enough of that. "That's the problem."
Valentina grew up surrounding money and more. We both did, considering after my dad died I grew up under her parents. Khloe and Owen Rodriguez. The founders of the town next door.
Khloe, my moms sister was never happy and always depressed, and I guess that made Owen depressed as well. So they committed suicide. All their money and belongings, even their home belongs to me and Valentina. But what really fucked us over, is that we have to wait till we're 21, to inherit it all.
And that would mean being alive for 4 more fucking years.
Her and I's plan was to strip until we have enough money to move out of New York, and inherit all the money once we turn 21. Evelyn, I never cared about it because without me she's going to rot on that sofa down stairs. So I didn't care less if I left her behind. "You're going to miss your appointment with your sponsor, Cee." She reminded me. "I'm pretty sure I'm still high, and blacked out but I'll go." My sponsor fucking hates me anyways.
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N-diisoproply-5-methoxtytryptamine is a very rear and illegal drug. Plz don't take or have anything to do with it. It was only used in this story for educational purposes only, lmao. The effects are very toxic. It can cause you to do and see things a healthy brain couldn't give you. Again plz have no interaction with it.
