Love From The Soul (Severus Snape x OC)

Chapter 20

WARNING : This chapter will contain some NSFW.

It had been quite some time since our search for the notebook had started, and as much as we managed to find out places where the book might have been present, there was no luck with finding the actual object. It was frustrating, but I had other worse problems showing up, namely my heat. November was nearing it's end when it finally reared it's ugly head, and I never knew such a feeling existed.

Not only did I wake up drenched in sweat, but the urges were incredibly strong, and I felt impossibly dizzy. My instincts were screaming at me to go to Severus, since that he, being my soulmate, would provide the most relief, but this was absolutely not an option, and the demon side of me seemed really irritated at my refusal to act and seemed to make it worse. The only way I could describe it was, painful hunger. Not only did it feel like I was sexually starving, but my heart was painfully throbbing with the desire of my soulmate's closeness.

Pleasuring myself to try and satiate this need barely helped as the hunger only slightly receded for a few minutes before demanding more. The glamour had been broken sometime during the night I'm guessing, but no wizard glamour could hide my appearance during a heat. Not only that, but owling Severus to put it back was out of the question. I heard myself growl in frustration and it sounded absolutely feral. I couldn't go out anytime soon, and who knows how long this will last.

I was scared of calling for Kwartukka because I didn't know how he would react to my situation. It was painful, but oh so pleasurable at the same time, it was torture to force myself to not think of Severus in that instance, I didn't trust myself to not lose control and seek him in my blind lust. I breathed heavily and seemed to growl with every exhale, After a few hours of trying to control myself, I caved in and called for Kwartukka to come to my aid. He promptly popped in and his eyes widened when he saw the state I was in.

''Oh no, my dear, you should have called for me as soon as you knew.'' He scolded me with too much worry to make it impactful.

''I......ngghhh.......d-didn't know if you would be affected by my heat..'' I say with great difficulty.

He shakes his head. ''Family are immune to each other's heat pheromones. I will not be affected by it whatsoever.'' He reassures me.

This reduces my anxiety significantly but still doesn't reassure me enough to find some calm. He seems to sense this and puts a hand on my shoulder.

''Fist time heats are notorious for being very hard to go through. Do not feel ashamed of yourself for your lack of control. Do however, keep trying to have some. You will need to build some tolerance over time, because while suppressants are good for suppressing, it doesn't rid you of the heat. There will also be times when it will happen at perhaps the worst times, you have to prepare yourself.'' He calmly explains.

I almost growl at him in frustration but I do my best to calm myself, he is only trying to help after all. After hours of enduring this the emotional pain of pining after a love I wouldn't go after was getting to me, and I started crying in agony. Sobbing while my body demanded sexual input was one of the worst feelings I could think of other than the pain the demon attack inflicted on me months ago. Kwartukka came back with a vial of liquid I could only assume was the suppressant he spoke of. I hadn't even noticed him leaving to get it in my haze.

I sat up to the best of my ability to be able to take it without spilling it everywhere. My teeth were clattering in my effort to not clench them. He gave me the potion gently while I struggled not to shake with the effort to reach some sort of composure. After having swallowed it, I felt my mating urges dull, while the emotional aspect took some more time before dying down. I was still shaking from the shock of how intense everything had been and silently shed tears while my gaze was glued to the ground. I felt Kwartukka sit besides me and rub my back, well it felt like my back enough. I reach with my arm to hug him sideways for comfort and lean my head on his shoulder like a child who just woke from a nightmare.