cover by @DevilshWritings
Luly is 17
She has enough problems on her own with depression anxiety and PTSD but she has a lily list
Things she wants to do before she dies and she forgets it on the subway
August is 18
a handsome man with fame...
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This is a brief life but in its brevity it offers us some splendid moments.... ~ Rudyard Kipling Track - Emotional Bruises- Madison beer
2:35
I glance at my phone and bobble my foot,something I do when in nervous. Asia would've loved it here in this train ,with that my mood dulls I hate how she is gone and I'm-'may u please pass the shoe?'that question pulls me out of my self pity .shoe ,shoe, shoe I chant in my head as I look around for this shoe and then I spot under my seat a toddler sized shoe ,as I hand it to her that's when I spot her bouncy little child. As I glance at her that's when I see myself in her ;the bags under her eyes ,the I'm tired face and she looks as though she is almost scared I want to say it's going to be okay but I can't give her hope when I'm thinking of ending it all.
I skim through the list holding for dear life ,one of my last memories of Asia. 'Third lane ' I hear through the intercom I get up ,get my bag and smile at the lady . I proceed to make my way out when I bump into someone and I drop my stuff I look up at this ....guy , a cute one at that 'umm sorry ,I wasn't paying attention' I say quickly as I pick up the things I dropped and scurry away
I walk a few blocks and I arrive Saint John Mental Institution I get in and wave at Emma the receptionist,I walk over to her "hey Em is syd here"I asked referring to her daughter and my best friend "oh Luly darling I checked u in and yes syd is in" she reply's I appreciate the way she mother's me,more than my mom ever has . I smile and walk into the waiting room , I take a seat and look around ,it's filled with desparate moms and embarrassed kids ,never a dad which is why I miss my father he always brought me here and I know everyone here from our M.H meetings , each and every person in this room starting from
Rosella Age: 17 Race:Hispanic American Mental illness:trauma I feel for her ,been here since she was 10
Next is Robbie Age:18 Race:Caucasian Mental illness: PTSD Much like me but he saw his mom and brother die infront of him
I feel the most for the next one
Audrey Age: 13 Race: Latina Mental illness: Depressed, PTSD,Anxiety and she is suicidal Her dad committed suicide and she saw him but she was helpless to fragile to even move, she was ten .
Then there is this new guy I've never seen him here before though he seems familiar . I get up just as my name is called 'Luly king'Emma calls. As I walk past her I kiss her cheek, as I get closer to the door I check my pockets,I can't find the list, no no no no . I feel a panic attack coming up ,breath Luly-someone tapped me , I turn around and it's that new guy and he has my list 'How did you get that'I ask 'Well I found it after u bumped into me' he answered and I seem to remember now 'umm thanks' as I grab it and I get in The room and I've never felt more thankful I take a seat 'Hi Luly how have you been' She starts Worse But I decide against it 'I feel like this is a trick question' I reply 'Mmmmmm' she sighs 'Well I want u to meet some one,I feel u would be.. Umm compatible' She continues She gets up goes to the door and calls people but I don't really care 'Luly, this is August and u might know Rosella they are here to be ur friends,Rosella needs you to to be her caretaker for a while' I don't need friends ,I need to leave I get up and before I walk out rose holds my hand looks me in the eye and says 'I know u don't know me but if not for u please stay for me I ... (her voice breaks need ) I need this' I look at her and see a broken little girl and then I take a seat I need to think about her she looks vulnerable.
'I'm willing to help 'I say I have a chance to help her
'Rosie can you step out please' August said that
After she leaves he looks me dead in the eye and that's when I see them, his eyes are so interesting
'August feels you need to know about rose' doctor Sahar says
'She was abused- He started but I cut him off
'Look I'm doing this for her not you guys so I want to hear whatever it is from her If she won't tell me I don't want to know It changes everything' I explain
Rosella comes back in and I smile at her She looks serene
'Hi rose , I've known u almost the whole time I've been here now I can get to know u . We can do cute girl things' I tell her
Her eyes light up 'Just you and me?'
'Yeah just you and me and august ' I reply I turn to doctor Sahar She looks pleased and I feel good
'Well let's go' rosella says I get up and walk out feeling like for the first time ever I'm doing good despite everything else.
