cover by @DevilshWritings
Luly is 17
She has enough problems on her own with depression anxiety and PTSD but she has a lily list
Things she wants to do before she dies and she forgets it on the subway
August is 18
a handsome man with fame...
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OCD
I don't know what Luly is doing to me but I don't like it, I didnt want to admit to her house driving me crazy but I feel locked in Not because its not clean but because it has no order, no strain on her daily life at all
I'm supposed to follow a strict schedule Wake up Brush my teeth Take a dump Take a shower Flush my toilet 4 times Dress up Draw my curtains Open the windows Turn off all the lights Turn them back on Turn them off again Wake up Rosella Make breakfast ( eggs and bacon for me and grits for Rosella) Look in the mirror Feed zeus Walk around the house Check my planner Leave for work
Everyday is the same, not cause I am crazy but because I feel safe when I do all these things.
I remember when my mother died and I had a mental breakdown not only because she died but because she had disturbed my routine and I felt sick and in danger.
It may seem like I'm the worst being on earth but its not fault, its because I have OCD and Bpd in fact being around Luly and breaking my schedule is making me very uncomfortable
I also hate that Rosella has already opened herself to Luly
Everything about Luly is really playing with my mind, she's sweet and caring but most importantly she's beautiful and I just wanna stare at her till I can't 'Winter, come back we have to get you ready if we're gonna surprise Luly' Rosella shouts as I walk away from Luly, I just kiss her cheek, I kissed LULY'S cheek
And for the rest of the evening I avoid all contact with Luly because all I can do is stare
Authors Note
Hi guys this is August's first pov and I know he sounds sus but this is my first male pov so character development is surely gonna happen Also i live with someone who has OCD and I just wanted to touch on what it feel like and how it debilitates your feelings
