Would You Be Mine Again

~Nineteen~

I slowly opened my eyes and took in my surroundings. It was Rowan's house. How the fuck did I get here. Good thing I still had my clothes on. I turned around to see Rowan but he was nowhere to be found. Where could he be.

I ran to the bathroom immediately and vomited right into the toilet bowl. I had too much to drink,now I'm having hangovers. Fuck.
I heard his footsteps. He was coming to the room.
"Nelly". He called out my name. I quickly ran out of the toilet.
"Yes Rowan,good morning".
"Hope you slept well,how are you?".
"I'm okay". He handed me a plate of bread and cup of tea.
"I'm fine thank you". I immediately took in the food.
"You had too much to drink last night".
I knew that already from the hangovers I'm having right now.
"Did I do anything wrong,like I mean did I misbehave or something?". I asked shyly. I know how annoying I get when I'm drunk.
"You didn't remember anything?". He asked me smiling. Why on Earth should he be smiling. Fuck. Shit. I must have said something.
I tried to remember what happened last night. The memories slowly came in like a rush of tidal waves.

Flashbacks

I was so drunk to the extent I couldn't walk on my own. And Rowan being the good guy to save the day,he couldn't let me go home alone,in that condition.

He carried me bridal style to his car and took me to his house. He laid me on the bed while trying to arrange himself to sleep on the floor. When I drunkenly called him.
"Rowan".
"Yes Nelly",
"Could you please stay with me?. I mean I miss you sleeping next to me",
"Nelly,I can't do that, you'll get upset when you are sober".
"Pleaseeeeee,I want to kiss you please. I miss you already. Steve hasn't been treating me right. I need you back please". I said with puppy dog eyes.
"Okay fine. I'll sleep on the bed with you". I could see myself smiling now.
He got changed and came to lie with me. I kissed him. Fuck.
"Cuddle me please?". I asked him to cuddle me. Which he gladly did and I fell asleep in his arms.

End of flashback

~•~•~

"Shit. I shouldn't have done that. I'm sorry". I was embarrassed now. I didn't let him know I still loved him right.
"We have to talk Nelly,finish up your breakfast,clean up and meet me in the sitting room. There are some of my shirts in the closet. You can wear them,while you wash yours". I was nervous now. Why did I have to drink too much. I didn't want to have an awkward discussion with him now. I finished eating and had my bath. I changed into his shirt. It was really big on me,it reached my mid thighs. I wasn't having any underwears on since I washed my clothes. I missed his manly scent. I missed his cologne. I inhaled the shirt like it was going to be the last I'll have his clothes with me. I went to meet him in the sitting room. I sat next to him. We were so close.

"I'm here now. What did you want us to talk about". I asked curiously.
"It's about...",
"If it's about what I said last night,its probably because I was drunk. I never meant them". I told him, cutting him short from whatever he was about to say.
"Nelly,I know how much you loved me and trusted me. I fucked everything up and I know,and trust me I regret every single thing I did to you. You also said Steve isn't treating you well. You are dating now?". I've been trying to avoid this questions for these months.
"Uhmm,yes I'm dating someone else". I wasn't able to look at him now.
"You said he isn't treating you well?". Right now he was holding my hands and looking straight into my eyes. How bad can this be.
"Yes,we just have issues,that's it".I told him.
"But I'm here Nelly. I'm here for you. I'm willing to make things right,for you,for us. I don't care whatever anyone thinks or says,all I want is you. Please Nelly. I need you back,I know you feel the same way about us". He wasn't lying. Right now I know I needed him. I was short of words. He said those words to me meaning every single one of them.
"What about Steve?". I asked him.

"Nelly,just do whatever you think is right,he doesn't treat you well,then why continue the relationship. I'm here now for you. I made a terrible mistake and I want to make it right".

"Truth be told Rowan,I still love you. I still feel the same way for you. It hasn't changed a bit. I lied to myself that I was over with you,I forced myself to love someone whom doesn't love me equally. He forced me to have sex with him against my own accord. I forced myself to fall in love with him so I could forget about you. I used Steve to console myself from the heart break since he was always there for me. I want you back Rowan but I'm scared to be with you. I don't want to date you and find it hard to trust you,cause you broke my trust once". I was filled with emotions. I could see it in his eyes too.

"I'm sorry I made you go through all this. It hurts me to see you in the hands of someone else. The day you told me you hated me,I wasn't myself. I cried Nelly. I knew you didn't mean those words. I hurt you so much. I'm really sorry,please forgive me". He meant everything he said,I could see it. I wasn't ready to loose him again.
I felt the urge to kiss him. I didn't hesitate. I brushed my lips against his, filling my mouth with his tongue. I missed the cherry taste of those lips. I kissed him,and he didn't hesitate to kiss me back. My hands were on his soft hair,my lips ravaging his. I never wanted this moment to end. I missed this man. He was everything to me. I felt the need to have him. His hands slid through the shirt to grab my ass. The kiss was growing slowly and passionately. He squeezed my ass soflty. We both pulled out from the kiss to gasp for air,as we were running out of breath. I hugged him as soon as we ended the kiss.

"Don't ever leave me again Rowan,please". I was serious now. I couldn't stand loosing him again. I was about crying now."I won't Nelly,I promise". He told me looking directly into my eyes.
I could feel the hot tears run down my cheeks.
"Don't cry please". He said wiping my face with his hands. He kissed my cheeks. I blushed hard