The Veracity

50.Decision

"I have made up my mind A-xing," I said once I sat down on the sofa in front of A-Xing, she was glaring at me, she looked like she was ready to explode her face was red with anger and frustration,

"You have gone mad Zhan, this is madness." This is what she has been trying to explain to me for the past few minutes, but I will not listen to her 

"But I have no other choice." 

"Yes you do," She said firmly, at this point she was shooting daggers at me.

I sighed and leaned forward, "A-Xing,"

"NO! Just shut up this is idiotic and moreover, you want to do this all alone? have you really gone mad now?"

I smiled, "Honestly, I am quite surprised myself that how the hell I am so sane after going through so much bullshit these past few days, I should have gone mad long ago."

Now she had completely lost it, as she stood up and attacked me with the cushion mercilessly beating me.

"How dare you joke in a situation like this?" she said.

"Woah calm down, tiger" I said and made her sit down beside me, before giving her a glass of water, she has been arguing with me for quite some time and I can tell that she is exhausted.

I had promised that I won't involve her in my matter anymore but I can't help it she is my family and moreover, she got really mad at me when I told her that I won't bother her, she was really hurt by the fact that I didn't trust her which is nonsense since she is the person I cherish and trust the most in the world, and no one can take her place.

Absolutely no one neither Yibo nor Kexing.

"Look A-xing this is the only way, my life is not going anywhere it's like I am stuck."

"And you think by putting your life in danger, you can solve everything?"

I sighed and rubbed my face," Wen Qing, why do you think that I am putting my life in danger when I am not? I am just going to pay a visit, to that place that's it."

"Yeah right, you are going to that ominous church, from which our parents have been hiding us and avoiding like plague-like really? what if someone recognizes you there what if you give away your identity what if you provoke the person from whom your parents are hiding you till now."

"Well...I am not that stupid, I am just going to pray over there, you know...just going to meet god, and...yeah only pray besides I need the blessings of a god..."

A-Qing sighed, "Then let me..."

"Shut up and no"

And once again she glared at me and attacked me with the cushion," Why huh why?!! let me come with you, I can help you there"

"Um..." I thought for a moment, "How about, no" I said with a cheeky smile, which resulted in her pulling my ear.

"You, are a headache a trouble, you know what you don't even have your power you are like a weak damsel in distress let me go with you so that I can help you," she said with a huff.

I smiled, "A-Xing, I am not going to do anything dangerous, I am just going to have a look, I am not going to talk to anyone I am not going to invite trouble, not now at least."

"What is that suppose to mean?" 

I am subbed my face before speaking again, "Yibo and Kexing have suffered a lot, they have suffered too much, Lost their family, abused by the world and whatnot, while I loved a peaceful life"

"Whatever they went through is not your fault, you have gone through a lot as well."

"Yes, I know that I am not at fault here but my suffering is nothing compared to them and this is not about comparison, both of them have hatred and years of trauma, 

Yibo took his revenge by killing my parents, it was his way of taking out his hatred while Kexing hates me, because he also needed someone to blame someone to hate and I am the one for him.

But One thing that I know is that no matter how much they both hate me it won't give them peace or satisfaction they need closure they need answers, 

They want to know that what in the world went wrong, but they are just too exhausted, that's why I am willing to look for answers for them and for me as well."

 A-Xing didn't say anything for a while, she is not dumb to not understand that If I am going to find answers then it's obvious that I might provoke someone, because I am sure that whoever my parents were hiding me from is the one who will give me my answers.

"Why don't you try it after you have your powers and memory?"

"I can't wait any longer god knows when my memory will come back, will it come back at all or not, but I am not going to wait anymore, Zhishu is working on my memories so let's see what he can do."

"Alright...but...stay safe okay?"

"Okay," I smiled.

Author's note: It feels good to be back.

SO what do you all think about Zhan's decision? should he go for it or wait for his powers and memories to come back?

And one more thing I love this friendship between A-Xing and Zhan considering what both of them went through and how Zhan had treated her their friendship is still strong and beautiful.

Don't forget to vote and comment your comments are like a motivation for me.