In Love And Death

We Are So Messed Up

I tried to act normal, "Hey, Quinn," I rolled up the chips and put them back. "I was just hungry," I laughed at myself.

"Oh, can you get me food? I don't want to hurt." He said from the couch.

"Sure, what do you want?"

"Those chips," he reached his arm out and squeezed the air for them. I grabbed the chips again and walked into the living room. The room moved behind Quinn. I left to see if Bert was okay. He came out before I went inside his room.

"Hey." he leaned against the wall. Bert started sliding down the wall, sat on the floor and giggled. "I'm so stoned."

His giggling made me laugh, "What the fuck have we done?" I questioned during our laughter. I stopped when he did. Quinn had no idea what was happening in the other room. He probably thought we were just being idiots.

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"Why are Jeph and Branden here?" Quinn said, looking out the window.

I opened the door, "We're celebrating you getting out," I said to him. Jeph stepped in the house and brought beer with him.

"Dude, none of us can drink, and Branden will leave sooner because of it." Bert said, he set them on the counter.

Jeph turned around and saw Branden was on the phone, "He is only gonna be here for a while. Jessie, his girlfriend doesn't want him to be out long. So we can get wasted." Jeph grabbed the beers and put them in the fridge.

"You guys are idiots," Quinn shook his head, "But what the hell. I won't be an asshole to you guys."

Branden stopped inside, "Guys, Jessie wants to see me. I'll see you sometime." He gave Quinn a hug and drove away.

"So we are down a guy early." Jeph grabbed a beer and opened it, "Lets party," he handed all of us beers and we started drinking.

"I can't believe we're doing this again." I took another drink, "We are the dumbest people."

"Yeah, but it's fun. This is for Quinn," he patted Quinn's back.

He sighed, "This will be tragic," he said under his breath.

"Dude, why?" Bert asked. He held the bottle in his hands.

"I just don't feel like drinking tonight. I'll see you later." He slowly climbed up the stairs.

"So now what do we do?" Bert asked. Jeph and I shrugged.

"I could see if Matt wants to party?"

"Yea, he could hang with us." I got my phone out and texted Matt.

Z: I'm having a party at the house you were at yesterday. Want to come?

M: Sure, I'll be over when my shift ends.

I put my phone away, "I think he'll be here at ten."

"So should we party? Or do you wanna have dejà vu and go swimming?" Jeph asked.

"Swim, Quinn probably doesn't want to hear us." I felt a little tipsy. I started recognizing the feeling. My beer was empty, so I started to drink another.

"You alright Zoe?" Bert asked.

"Yeah," I took a sip, "I'm okay." I felt pain l leave my body, I couldn't feel anything, I was drunk after two beers.

A car pulled up into the driveway, I watched Matt get out and walk up to the house. I answered the door.

"We're gonna leave to swim in a minute. Wanna come?" I said, my words slurred and became just noises.

"Are you drunk?" I forgot Matt was 22.

"Si señorita," I fell up against the door frame, Bert caught me before I fell on my face.

"What the fuc-," Matt pointed at me. He probably thought I was different, he was clueless of what had happened over the week I had been living here.

"Umm she did this herself." Bert let go of me and I grabbed a new beer. Matt grabbed it out of my hand before I could drink it.

"Zoe, what your doing is illegal. Stop," he threw the can in the trash.

"Well, I want some," I grabbed another that was laying on the counter. This time I was able to drink some before he took it away. Bert and Jeph were done with the beer, Matt threw them all out.

"If this is what I knew was going on. I would have never come. But, I will stay until you sleep," he was pissed at all of us.He was acting like my mother when she didn't trust my friends to watch me.

I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. "You're not going to have much fun." I rolled my eyes, I don't think Quinn heard any of this. That was a good thing though.

Bert, Jeph, and Matt followed, "I don't want you guys becoming idiotic fucks until your older. Like how I was when my band started."

"Fine mom goodbye," Bert left for him room. Jeph followed him, he had really no where else to sleep.

I was alone with Matt, anxious and angry.

"So how's life?" I was trying to make conversation to forget about Matt's mommy instincts.

I realize that these beginning chapters, these will get longer.