In Love And Death

Hopefully this goes well, otherwise the show will just suck.

"Where did you hang my show clothes?" I asked Brian, searching for my black duffel bag. He never told me where he put anything of mine. So I was struggling to find my things.

I turned around to see where he was pointing. "Over there, by my rack, it probably over there. If I'm remembering right." He trailed on, mostly saying nothing.

I went over and grabbed my stage clothes and other things I needed for the show.

"Nice choice," I said to Brian. He wearing his jumpsuit from the music video they shot for 'Special K'. The whole band was wearing their outfit from that video. I just had a black button up and bleached jeans, looking out of place was my thing.

We all waited for Steve to come out of his dressing room. Brian started to sing a little to warm up his voice.

"I think I still have my voice." He said, going back to his cigarette.

Steve came out with his arms wide. "Last show in America."

"Lets do this," Brian said, bringing us in a group hug. We were there for minutes, staying calm before the craziness started.

"I love you guys so much." Stef said. He pulled us in closer, tightening the hug.

I heard the beginning of 'Taste In Men' start to play, it was time to go.

We stopped the group hug and Brian took his cigarette from his mouth. "Stefan go do your gay dancing." He was getting ready for the show.

"Why," he said, putting in his monitors.

"Just go," He pointed out the door. Where Steve was already heading.

"Fine." Stefan followed Steve out the door. I was waiting along with Brian.

"Just stay where you where last night. I'll say your name when we're about to play 'Black Eyed'." He smiled when the fans roared at Stef's dancing.

"Okay let's do this." I said following him to the stage. I laughed when I saw Stef dancing, Brian started dancing with Stefan, I kept laughing. Steve was the only one actually playing his instrument, the two twenty-year olds kept dancing until Brian had to sing. I waited for my turn.

The songs went by quickly, until it got to my turn to play 'Black Eyed'.

"Wow, look at all the people here tonight." Brian said, pulling some little bits of hair from his sweaty face. The equipment manager gave me my guitar and told me to put in my monitors.

The crowd roared back. Brian wanted it to be louder. "Seriously look at all the people here tonight."

Brian started talking once the yelling went down a little. "Thank you all so much for being on the last show on this tour. It means so much to all of us." He looked over to me and smiled before turning back to the audience. "Before we start this next song I have a friend here with me. She's been through a lot lately and I would love it if you could show your support for my friend Zoe." He waved his hand to bring me out.

I stepped out to a screaming crazy audience. I found my mic got ready.

"Thank you guys all so much. I wouldn't even be on this earth without these three." I smiled at them.

"Well, my friend Zoe here is going to play this next song with us." Brian said.

"More like girlfriend." Stef added, making the crowd cheer a little at Stef's words.

"True, but anyways." Steve played his part while Brian spoke. "Sing along if you know this fucking song." He waited for his part to sing. I sang along, Brian didn't care much if I sang or not. He was mostly watching everyone with a camera, he didn't like them much.