I just want to know how I feel.
lately I've felt overwhelmingly
disoriented and I don't know
how I'm supposed to assess
this bothersome situation.
I'm trying to find the right words
to describe the way I feel.
All I know is that I am happy
and that I miss the people
that I see everyday.
It's like I'm disconnected
from everyone around me.
I just want to understand
this attitude that I've been wearing
like a dark, unnoticeable pin
adorning my daily attire.
No one has noticed my confusion
and I hadn't either.
I miss the person I used to be
but I guess that's a price
I have to pay to be happy.
like Kurt Cobain sang,
"I miss the comfort in being sad."
This fake sense of happiness
has left me feeling empty
like the end of a hangover.
I guess I overdosed on delirium.
