the player and the killer

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Rays pov

When Norman said he broke up with her i felt sympathetic to her. When I saw Norman kiss her she looked so happy. And now knowing she was crying somewhere because of him made me feel sick to my stomach. I might hate Liam but at least I know he would never do that to my mother. He might not like me but I've seen the way he looks at my mom its not with lies or with lust he truly loves her and I respect him for that but with Norman I don't know what to think.

He's a nice guy but at the same time he is the meanest man in the world. I don't know if Emma was right or if I was about hanging out with him I just know I don't like this side of him.

Norman looked shocked at my words. He just sat there staring at me while I looked down at my lap. "Norman" I spoke up after five minutes of not saying anything. "Look I want to be your friend its just...I don't know if I can even look at you knowing that you hurt people so badly. Its one thing physically hurting someone, that only hurts for a little bit considering how much they endure. But what you do is mental pain. You can make people depressed or have long term trust issues". Norman watched me and seemed to be thinking carefully about everything I was saying so I continued.  " look I'm not telling you how you should live your life or anything like that I'm just saying that if you keep doing things like this it will be very hard for me to be your friend".

Norman sighed. "Ray I understand what your saying, I really do its just...I've been doing things like this sense middle school, I don't think I can just stop and never do it again after just one day".

I nodded. "I understand that and I'm not telling you to sto-". "BUT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU" Norman yelled. Thankfully there wasn't anyone in the cafe right now because all the workers were in the back.

Norman took a deep breath."look Ray from the moment I saw you I knew I was attracted to you unlike anyone I met before." "Norman I tol-" "I KNOW" he cut me off and sighed again and looked at his lap. " I know you said you would never fall for me and I respect that. I just.... if I can't date you I want to at least try to be friends with you. So for you I want to change".

I was in shock of what he said. "You...want to change.....for...me"?

Norman nodded and looked up at me. He had such a lost look in his eyes. Like a child looking for its way home. It actually hurt seeing him with this look. "Why"? "Why would you ever want to change or even consider being friends with me"?

At this point I was crying. At my old home Noone ever really put much effort into talking to me instead I was the one who had to try to talk to people thus why I didn't have many friends.  And with my mother being the way she is I always had my gard up. True she didn't murder but she did do some messed up shit that would get her in prison if the cops ever found out it was her. Because of her I always felt so pressed to change and adapt to be smart strong and perfect for her to be happy with me but now someone wants to adapt to make me happy. And at this school I didn't have to try unbelievably hard to try to make friends people just wanted to be with me. I've only been here for 5 days and I don't even know what to feel.

I put my hands on my face and tucked my head into my knees to hide the fact I was full on sobbing at this point.   I was so confused. Why....why is everything so different here.....why is everyone so nice here....why is it not me who feels they have to be better for someone else.....why. whats happening to me......I'm so lost.....dad whats happening.....please help me.....

I sat there in the chair curled up in a ball crying my eyes out. I felt so confused and lost until warm arms pulled me off of the chair and into a lap.

I looked up only a little to see Norman. He had tears in his eyes to but not nearly as bad as mine. He hugged me tightly and stroked my hair. "Ray....shhh....I'm sorry.....shhhh...I'm sorry".

I let go of my knees and grabbed onto normans shirt and buried my face I to his chest. He held me like a mother would hold there crying child. He held me like my mother held me so many times back at are old home. Just remembering it made me cry more.

Norman continued to pet me and whisper to me. "Shhhh ray.....I know I can't change overnight......but ill be better....for you.....ray......I want to be with you....I don't care if it is as a boyfriend.....or as a normal friend....I just know....that I'm never gonna give up.....I love you ray.....".

I held onto his shirt tighter and nuzzle my face unto his chest trying to control my breathing.  "I want to be with you to.......I might not like you romantically.....but I want to hang out with you....play video games with you.......eat with you....sit in class with you....and talk crap about my moms boyfriend with you...". That last part made me smile and Norman chuckle.

"I know you can't change something over night but....I'll stay by your side as long as you try....".

Norman smiled and nodded. I was trying not to fall asleep in his arms but staying awake after crying as hard as I did proved to be a fight that I was not going to win. Norman noticed I was almost asleep in his arms so he took out my phone and showed me he was texting my mom that I was going to stay the night at his house again tonight. She responded quickly and told me it was fine. I smiled and nuzzle my face deeper into normans chest as he picked me up.

Norman held me so I was hugging him from the front my arms were rapped around his neck while my legs were around his waist. He had put my phone back in my pocket and put both of are backpacks on his back. He honestly looked stupid it was funny. He put his arms underneath my legs so he was holding me up. I put my face into his neck and we left the cafe. Thankfully his house was just a block away so he didn't have to walk to far.

"Wow Ray you really need to eat more you are to light its disturbing ". I giggled and continued to hold onto him. He smiled and gave me a kiss on the forehead. I was losing concessions but the last thing I heard before I passed out was Norman say "I promise Ray ill be better for you no matter what it takes".