Leather and Lace {Zarry}

Chapter 21

Harry's POV:

It's been exactly 1 month, 10 days and 8 hours to be precise since zayn left. Yeah.... I know that I forced him to go. That I can't stand to see his face anymore. That I can't stand his lies anymore. I know all these. But. But. There's always a but when it comes to zayn.

When I can't see him, I feel miserable, helpless, thirsty for his touch. I'm surrounded by thousands here in office day and night, but still utterly alone. I don't go to home anymore. It's like the walls are caving in on me when I stay alone. He spoiled me for life. I can't even look at other faces, for when I try to move on, I always see his face in strangers.

Like the first time, Jeff hooked me up with a girl. She was over enthusiast and all over me from the get go. I somehow survived the dinner for Jeff's sake. But when she started opening my belt at a secluded pavement outside of the restaurant, zayn's face flashed in my mind and I lost it and ran to a reclusive bar leaving her there alone.

That was the first and last time, that I listened to anyone. Gemma is consistent with her lecture after he left. Everyday she will come and tell me that I am an idiot and I never listen to anyone and bla bla bla. I zone her out like always. I know that zayn made her fool, but he couldn't do that to me this time. I won't let him make me a fool again. It's better to survive on alcohol and try to forget him for few hours at least. That's the routine for me everyday. Office at day. Bars at night. And I intend to survive like this, rather than being a fool again by him and his pathetic lies.

My self talk ended, when gemma entered my office without even knocking. I asked in a boring voice 'What happened again? Why are you so frustrating?'

'As usual in wonderful *grumpy* mood.... I see!'

'Why do you care gems?! Just tell me what do you want? And don't start the same lecture again please!'

'Okay... I won't!'

'What?'

'Yeah! You heard right..... I won't! But I wanna ask you something.'

'And that is?'

'Did you take back that car from Mr. Higgins's house?'

'Oh no! I totally forgot about it!'

'Yeah... I know. Today he called me and asked me when are you getting it. Apparently you weren't attending his any calls.'

'Uhh....yeah. I just didn't want to talk to anyone.'

'Yeah. It's been awhile like that. But please....'

'Yeah yeah.. I know! I'll get it today only and I'll personally go there and apologize to him for this.'

'Well I hope you find everything back!' She exclaimed and then left, just like that. Ughh! She's getting extremely weird lately.

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Mr. Higgins has been always a little eccentric, I knew, but today he is behaving out of his character. He is being extremely polite and asking me about my health and everything. So I asked out of curiosity 'Ummm.... Is my car alright? I know I shouldn't have forgotten about this, but shit happens!'

'Oh no no no! Your car is absolutely fine. Come, it's this way.' He said and took me into his underground garage.

'Oh thank God! Thank you so much Mr. Higgins! But umm... If you don't mind, may I ask you something please?'

'Yeah sure!'

'Ummm... Are you okay? Is everything fine? You are behaving strangely.'

'Hahaha.... No no... Nothing like that. I just wanted to know how are you... Genuinely! You are like my son and what happened that night was seriously terrifying. If that boy was not there, I really don't know what would have happened to you. Thank god for him. I called you many times to know if you are okay or not but unfortunately you weren't receiving my calls.... '