Todd POV
I'm sitting silently at my desk, the only sound is my pen scratching the paper. I'm supposed to be writing an essay about Walt Whitman which is normally an easy task but one boy is stuck in my head. Neil Perry: smart, handsome, amazing. Oh for gods sake.
I hear the iconic FaceTime sound, it shows the screen: Neil. I pick up and I'm greeted with Neils face.
"Hi." He smiled.
"Hi," I said softly, smiling and looking down.
"What're you smiling for?" If possible his smile grew even bigger.
"Nothing." I pursed my lips and looked up to the screen.
"You're blushing too!" He gasped.
"Todd's got a crush!" He exclaimed. In the background a faint: "Shut up Neil!" Probably Charlie.
"Shut up! I do not!" My expression now beginning to look scared. I was still smiling, how couldn't I? I was looking at Neil.
"Tell me who it is! Tell me who it is!" Neil chanted.
Oh Jesus, if I tell him that it's him, then he'll think I'm weird, but I mean he should know he's amazing, so wouldn't he reply with: "who doesn't?" But he'll think I'm weird for being gay, and then we won't be friends anymore and I can't lose Neil I just-
I was brought from my thoughts when Neil called my name,
"Todd, are you having another panic attack?" He asked concerned.
I hadn't noticed it but I had fallen into a panic attack, in front of Neil. I was brought back to reality as I realised it was getting hard to breathe and I was crying. I had nothing to do but nod,
"Please help me..." I sobbed.
I saw Neil frantically jump out of his seat and rush to get his keys. It became harder to breathe. He started driving and I heard him pull into the driveway 5 minutes later.
At this point I was off the chair. I had fallen and hit my head.
"Todd..." Neil said breathlessly.
He came down and hugged me. He was stroking my hair and I was inhaling his scent, it was very calming, I eventually calmed down.
"Neil?" I asked.
"Yeah?"
"It's you."
"What do you mean?"
"Idiot."
He obviously wouldn't get the hint, so we would have to go to drastic measures. I did the thing I never thought I would do.
I. Kissed. Him. And he kissed me back. We pulled away and I rested my head on his chest. I smiled. I was really happy.
"Todd?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you."
"I love you too."
