Lawlight

Fever

Misa's POV

I put down the pen in my right hand. Leaving it onto the table.

I should wait more before killing him.

I wasn't going to kill L yet. I have to believe in Light. He should be able to take care on his own. I don't want him to get mad. He was Kira, after all. The person who saved my parents. I was more than happy to be useful to him. Dedicating myself to him.

I sighed and leaned back on my chair.

"L Lawliet, huh?"

Light's POV

I opened my eyes. My head hurt more than ever... What happened?

I glanced over my right to see Ryuzaki lying next to me on a separate bed with a wet cloth on his forehead. His face burning up and mouth slightly open.

I almost had a heart attack when I recalled what happened before my eyes went black. I got up so fast not caring about my head and rushed over him.

"L!!!" I hugged his warm body in my arms. Squeezing tight.

"...huh? Oh, Light..." I felt tears filling my eyes when I heard him talking again.

I sobbed, burying my face in his hair.

"I'm sorry..." I slowly put him back on the bed and rushed upstairs with tears in my eyes. I heard my dad and others yell for me but didn't care. L ended up like that... because of me. It was all my fault.

I had to do it. I have to. Or I won't be able to save Ryuzaki.

I opened the door going onto the rooftop and locked it behind me. It was chilly. The clouds from yesterday still lingering on the sky. I took a deep breath before walking on the edge. I sat down looking down at all the people. The cars. The buildings.

I closed my eyes recalling the moments I shared with Ryuzaki. For once in my life, I actually felt something. I actually cared about someone. I was not acting. Despite us being mortal enemies of course. Why did I have to be Kira...

Why did fate make us enemies? Just by  existing we were a threat to each other. Maybe if I didn't pick up that notebook... I hate to admit but I was losing my mind. This notebook... This power... It was driving me crazy at this point. And I was aware. If I kept on...living... I might do something I'd regret.

I could feel my feet dangling down the edge. The wind brushing through my hair. I smiled keeping my eyelids shut. Slowly standing up and spreading my arms. I was finally at the top. But at what cost...

Even since I was a kid, I was tired of all the bad people getting away with everything they do. Murderers, rapists, thieves... I wondered to myself, what kind of justice did this world have for it to come to this? These people were ruining the whole world, turning it into a rotten place. Why did no one try to change this? If god did exist, why wasn't anything done? Why did the innocent have to suffer?

I knew from the start that it could've come to this, me turning into a monster. Because of all the people who didn't understand my points. Even L. He insisted he was justice.

But if he was, then why hasn't the world changed when Kira wasn't around? Even if the only reason people stopped doing bad things is because they're scared, atleast the innocent are safe. Because with Kira, they're protected.

With Kira, the world is better.

Because Kira...

...is the new God of the New World.

Maybe I could make L understand. Maybe he could join me...who am I kidding. I know if I keep thinking about saving the world, it all comes back to me having to kill him. He is the only thing that's stopping me.