CLEMENCY, CORPSE HUSBAND

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him.

Mei
i'm sorry
i didn't mean what i said
i just
fuck
Mei please text me
i love you i do
i promise

Fields of delicate flowers that were spread across the green plains, made even the most hardworking people stop and look.

Didn't matter who they were, these flowers were for all.

From a housewife to a business woman.

A twenty-one year old streamer.

Which didn't have much difference at all.
Because people are so alike.

But somehow she still didn't understand him. She gazed down at the vibrant flowers. Hoping for a sign that could guide her.

Nothing.

Not even going outside made her feel better. After stupidly searching on the internet, asking what she could do to reach a decision.

Fresh wind hit her softly.

Go outside — they said

silently observe.

you'll know what to do.

lies

Is it so wrong for me to believe that everyone around me are liars?

If that's all I know and hear.

Once you realize not everything being said is the truth, you overthink every word that go past their lips. Your mind goes through various what if's and the words that may seem to be innocent show deeper meaning to you.

And once you do figure out the real feelings behind their words, you start to crack. Usually It's something you don't expect and you don't really see the crack until it's too late. No time to heal, to fix yourself.  So, eventually you completely shatter.
And die.

Look at me — I'm miserable

would you do anything for love?

yes?

think to yourself, is it really worth it?

is love worth it?

I'm not angry at him. I just don't understand him nor myself. Hadn't I done the same to him beforehand? After idiotically confessing my stupid, stupid feelings for him. I took it back as If I had stolen his favorite toy.

"Haha sorry... I didn't mean to."

I treated it like a joke.

Am I a hypocrite?

Yes — Yes you fucking are

But what he said hurt-

Mei.