Escape [Jack Gilinsky] - HIATUS

chapter 14.

''I'll miss having you around'' Mahogany says while helping me packing my things. 

''Hey, don't be sad'' I hug her tight. ''I'll call you everyday and we'll be always in touch. I promise you, I'll tell you everything'' When I was about to pack my curling iron I find Jack's t-shirt. I remembered using it in one of the nights when the nightmares were unbearable and Jack stayed with me till I fell asleep again. The black piece of cloth falls from my hands catching my friend's attention. 

''You guys should talk before you leave. We all can see how much you care with each others.'' She tries to make me go talk to him but I don't want to. If he liked me the way he said he did he would have understood how important this is to me.

''He's the one overreacting and acting like a kid'' I roll my eyes and lay on my bed.

''You said there was nothing between the two of you'' She says in a high voice. ''and you know Jack never liked someone before so it's normal for him to have all this insecurities.'' 

''Yeah whatever.'' I pretend I don't care with this, with him but I know I'm failing miserably. I grab his t-shirt and walk out of the room. I take it to my nose and capt his smell one last time. I knock at the door of his room and JJ opens it greeting me with a cold smile. 

''You're not looking for me I guess'' He rushes and I give him a little smile. Johnson told me how disappointed he was with me and I wasn't expecting any other thing than him having Jack's back. ''I'm gonna let you guys talk.'' He leaves the room and I close the door. The boy who's been taking my mind all day is laying on the bed, staring at the ceiling with his hands under his head. Even though it's not the best time I can't not notice his great biceps.

''Hey'' my voice comes out shaky, goddammit. I stare at him but he doesn't even blink. ''Can we talk?'' I try again. Nothing comes out of his mouth. ''Jack plea...''

''What do you wanna talk about? Is there any other thing you would like to tell me that I'm not aware of? I think you left pretty clear three days ago that we don't have anything. So, if you could leave my room, I don't like strangers getting too close of me.'' He's so angry at me. I can tell by his voice.

''I... Jack... I don't want things to be like that, I really care about you.'' 

''Bullshit Claudia. You keep feeding me with bullshit and you actually expect me to believe it.'' He stands up from the bed and walks towards me, his expression is harsh and his voice irradiates hate. I don't know what to do or what to say. ''You don't care about me, you never really did. I even wonder if all that sad story about Liam wasn't just a move to make me fall even harder for you.''

''How can you say that?'' My eyes are burning but I won't cry. ''You saw me having nightmares, you stayed wake all night while I was crying in your shoulder. How can you even think that?'' 

''I can't even stand look at you. You knew how insecure I was about you and you used that against me. If you're gonna leave me just do it now.'' He looks to his side so we won't face each others eyes. 

''I just wanted to return your t-shirt.'' I toss it to a empty chair. ''I'm leaving in twenty minutes in case you're wondering'' I cross my arms and stay there awkwardly waiting for an answer that won't come. 

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''You need to call me every single day, send me pictures to whats app and face time with me at least 4 times per week'' My brother says while hugging me thighter than he ever did. 

''I'm staying with Taylor okay? She will parent me even better than you.'' I reply, trying to calm down his nerves.

''I know or I wouldn't let you go you morrow.'' He slaps his hand against my forehead and then kisses me there. ''I am so proud of you, I swear I am. I love you with all I have for God's sake''