chapter 3.

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''Wait, there's more'' he looked at my eyes. ''The managers want you to come with us'' he spoke with a serious tone of voice.

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"What??" I was surprised and being honest, scared. "Do you think I'm ready to be surrounded by crowds again?"

"I think you can do whatever you want sis. you've been doing well with all that Erasmus thing so yeah I think you can be on the road with us. and I would miss you so much... please think about it" he said, doing the puppy eyes. Arghh he knew I couldn't resist to that.

"I don't know Cameron... it still to soon since that happened" When I thought about it tears came eyes and I had to do a huge effort so they wouldn't fall.

"That's one more reason why you should come. It will be good to you let the past go."

"Let the past go Cam? You think it's easy?'' There I was, crying again.

"Shit Claudia, here we go again. I know you think you own him some kinda of respect or whatever you wanna call it. You are so stuck in the past that you can't let yourself move on. YOU DESERVE A LIFE OKAY?" That shut me up. He was right, but I would never admit it. I was too stubborn for that. He was just worried with me I could see it in his eyes.

"What's going on? Why are you screaming at each other?" My mother said in a worried tone.

"What's going on mother is that I just told to your daughter about the great opportunity Magcon was giving to her and how she is throwing it away because of the damn past" My brother said and then he left. Tears streamed down my face.

''Come here sweetie'' she hugged me making me feel better, like she always did. ''You know your brother is right. you deserve a life and you can't give up, you've done so well through this year, and Magcon is an excellent opportunity to improve your communication skills. Cm'on think about it.'' She smiled and left the room. 

Everything was the way I left when I went to London. Pictures all over the walls, the windon seat full of pillows and my bookshelf from the floor to the celling full of my favorite books. My desk was still a mess, with paperworks, school stuff and other things. My kingsize bed was perfectly made. The room and bathroom were still painted of nude tones like everything in the room. I felt peace. I checked my phone. 6 p.m already? Time was flying. Slowly I started unpacking my clothes and personal stuff. I smiled while I was puting new pictures in the walls. I had great moments with my foreign friends and I was already missing them. When I finnished I grabbed my car keys and went to the garage. The beautiful siver rang rover was there. Probably Cameron wouldn't need it for today. Driving was so relaxing. I started driving for old roads verifying that everything was still the same. Suddendly I noticed the beach. I parked the car and went out. I missed it so much. The smell of the sea, the feeling of the sand in the skin and the sun shinning. The sound of the seagulls, the kids laughing. Everything was pure bliss. I just stayed there till the sun went down, thinking about everything that happened and what Cameron said. LA was defenitly my place, no matter how much I loved London. I was thinking about the past, the present and the future. I knew the answer to Magcon's proposal. I drove back home. 

I parked again the car in front of the driveway and opened the front door. All I could hear was telivison sounds. I found Cameron in the living room watching that's 70's show and eating pizza. 

''Hey I borrowed your car.'' I said just to check if he was still angry, he would never mind me borrowing his car. He didn't answered. ''where's mom and dad?'' I spoke again. 

''At grandma's'' he said without even looking at me. 

''seriously, you're still mad at me?'' I said in a annoyed tone.

''I apologize I can't see my sister getting hurt over and over again by something that she can't change. I'm sorry if I can't stand watching you being stuck with a past that makes you have nightmares at night, makes you change of city and cry over your pillow every single day. I'm sorry I love you too much to watch you being broken and don't do anything to help you move on.'' He spoke looking into my eyes that were tearing up. again. Oh my god, I need to stop being such an emotional wreck. I hugged him so tight I thought he couldn't breath. 

''I love you too Cameron, I'm sorry.'' I felt my tank top getting wet. Shit, he was crying. 

''It's fine, I just still don't understand why you know? I loved him too, like a best friend.''

''I know you did.'' I was the wrost person to comfort someone, believe me. ''Hey, enough of this lame shit. Tomorrow you gonna take me to shopping, I need new clothes if we're going to be on the road for so long.'' the words went out of my mouth before I could stop them. 

''YOU'RE KIDDING. YOU'RE COMING WITH US? OMG THAT'S THE BEST NEW OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT'S GONNA BE AWSOME I NEED TO TELL EVERYONE THEY WILL LOVE IT. THANK YOU THANK YOU.'' he was screaming and jumping. He was really happy for having me. 

''Okay, then you can pay for my new outfits if you are so thankfull for having me on tour.'' I said eating his pizza.

''Oh yeah keep dreaming hobbo. We only have more two weeks than we'll be lliving for the hell tour'' He said laying down in the couch. ''You should DM Gilinsky ssaying that you're going on tour, he'll be thrilled''

''Put some food in your mouth so you'll be quiet Alexander.'' I said blushing. The thought of Jack being happy to see me somehow made me feel a weird feeling in my stomach. what the heck? he was just another player. And I was not going to fall for anyone again.

*jump in time*

The two weeks rushed in time. I had already met Mahogany, Aaron, Taylor and Carter. I spent the two weeks hanging out with them, my brother, Nash, Hayes, the Jacks, Mahogany and Matt. Mahogany is very cute and nice and we've been developing a good friendship during these days.  The only two missing were Shawn and JC. I was finishing my packing when my dad came into my room.

''You know you can always come home you don't feel well, we will be here for you.'' My dad was a doctor and was always with afraid of me having a depression due to the pressure that I had being suffering and my anxiety problems.

''I know dad, don't worry. I'll be fine and Cameron will be there for me any time'' I hugged him. 

''Knock knock. Are we ready to go?'' Cameron said. 

''Yeah, let's go.'' I grabbed my bags and looked for the last time at my room. We went down stairs and drived to the airport. When we arrive there biggest part of the guys are already there. Cam introduced me to JC and Shawn and I started talking with Mahogany about how excited we were for the tour. She was tone of the few girl friends I had to be honest, don't get me wrong but I always got better friendships with guys not being sluty or whatever.
"Finally man, you're late." JC said to Jack G.
"Sorry bro" he had a sleepy face that made him look even more cute. What the fuck Claudia?
"Long night ah Gilinsky? Another easy catch?" Matt spoke to him with a reproving look on his face. "You need to stop using girls Jack, seriously. You need to move on"
"Don't be a pain in the ass Matt. I'm 18 I'm just having fun JESUS" Jack said with annoyance. He was such a player. Just how I thought. And somehow that gave me a uncomfortable feeling.

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