Escape [Jack Gilinsky] - HIATUS

chapter 7.

''I'm glad you liked it.'' He said smiling slightly and intertwining our fingers under the table.''And I'm so glad you're here.'' He whispered in a sweet voice.

After he said that I felt my stomach contracting and my hands getting sweaty. I let go of his hand and got up. 

"I need to go catch some air,  excuse me" I said getting up and receiving a concerned look from my brother.
"Do you want me to go with you?" Cameron asked. 
"I'll be fine by myself thanks anyway. " I answered smiling at him. I walked to the exit and when I reached the outside I left my breath go out. I felt like I was sustaining the air since Jack said that words to me. That guy was bipolar or something. I couldn't think straight or even breathe normally. He was reaching me and I couldn't let him. I felt someone touching my shoulder and I turned around, regretting the move in the second I made it.
"Why did you left? Without saying one word?" He asked surprised. Of course he was surprised, he was expecting me to melt right there after his sensitive although fake speech. "How can you be so cold? Listen I--" I didn't let him finish.
"No Jack, you listen." I screamed pointing my finger to him. "It's only been a few weeks since we met and I'm already tired. I'm so tired of your bullshit, your mean less words, all the things you say to me without feeling it. I'm a human, I have fucking feelings and you keep trying to play with them." I looked at him and he was in shock. I was yelling the words without giving a second thought to it. I was so glad that barely nobody was there looking or listening to our argument. I continued. "You can't do that. Not anymore. You can't be nice to me one day and in the next one try to destroy me  I'm so done with your mental games, enough of that. From now on you'll stay the hell away from me as much as possible. You'll only talk with me the necessary in the events so I won't fuck this up because I don't want to be the one who'll wreck the amazing group you guys are. And you can fuck all the girls you want because I don't care but you'll stay out of my way, I don't want anything with you. I can't even stand look at you, you're disgusting " His expression was new to me. If he wasn't the one and only Jack Gilinsky I would say that he was heartbroken,  in pain actually. But of course he wasn't,  that's pretty much impossible. He walked to me and grabbed my arm, holding it with strength. 
"Look at me in the eyes and tell me that you want me to back off." He yelled back in a harsh tone. I looked into his deep brown eyes and automatically lost my rationality. All my anger was going down and my thoughts were blurry. I still can't explain his effect on me, it's something new.
"I-I want..." I couldn't finish my sentence. He was taking away all my energy. Sucking it just by staring at me.
"You can't even tell me to let go of you. And you know why? Because deep down in your soul you know it's not what you want. We both know that. And you should stop fighting against it. Like I-" He was interrupted by my brother walking towards us.
"Are you okay? Am I interrupting something?" Cameron asked in a innocent voice. I think that we both looked at him like we were about to murder him. "Okay, I guess I am, you'll finish it later but for now we need to go. We're kinda late and Shawn is freaking out." Jack glanced at me but I ignored it and walked away alone going to meet all the guys.
"Hey are you okay? You look stressed." Matt approached me.
"Yeah I'm okay" I said giving him a weak smile.
"Are you sure? You and Gilinsky took forever, I was kinda worried about you guys. If it's about the convention don't you worry because I'm pretty sure you'll be great and the fans will love you. " He grabbed a few strings of my hair and put them behind my ear. We smile and he hugged me tight. I swear this guy is amazing. 
"Thank you" I calmly said to him. We went to the car and went to the hotel. I went upstairs to my room so I could fix my makeup and my hair, getting ready to the convention. My hands were shaking and all my body was tense. 

''Don't be nervous, it's all fun and games. Let's go.'' Mahogany said. We went down stairs to we met the boys and Aaron started to explain me that in the first day was all about talking to the fans and answering to some questions. Well, I could do that.