This was a Mistake...

How Dare You.

Monday comes around and Anna has asked me and Nathan to come over because apparently he has something to tell me... It better not be what I think it is...

I get dressed and dress J and wait for Nathan. We leave about five minutes to ten and arrive at Anna's at ten-thirty. As I'm getting Jackson out, Nathan goes up and rings the doorbell. I can hear Anna and him whispering.

I go inside and I grin when I see how much Leo and Izzy have grown. I send Jackson into the backyard with Rain and the pups and go to the living room. Anna and Nathan are sitting there and Nathan's staring at the ground. I look at him for a few seconds. He's not okay, he looks nervous...

"Hey, Baby... Can we talk for a sec? Please, it's important..." "Of course, Love. What's wrong?"

"Promise me you won't get mad..." Uh oh... "I promise. I also need to tell you something..."

"I... I enlisted in the army... I'm so sorry, Baby," he says. My face fell and tears formed in my eyes. I knew it. He's still looking at the ground.

"Yo-you can't be... We-were having another baby and you promised you wouldn't!" I yell. I feel a tear roll down my cheek. I take a breath.

"When do you go for the check-up thing?" He asked.

"Thursday..."

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck."

"What?" I ask. Please don't be...

"I'll be in boot camp... I'm sorry." He says. I look away. I knew it...

"It's fine.. You need to live your dreams..." I say, still looking at the ground.

"No it's not... I broke a promise and I hate that, but I wanna do this. For me, for you, for J, and now for this baby."

I just sit there. I don't say anything, afraid that If I do, I'll break. I hate this feeling. I don't want anybody to see my cry and Anna and Nathan already have. I have to be strong for Jackson. I take a breath and blink away the tears.

Just then Rain comes in, crying and I'm so glad I got myself together when I did, otherwise Rain would see her Aunty cry and we don't want that.

Apparently Mickie yelled at Rain for hitting her.

"Rain, did you hit mummy?" Anna asked her.

"Yeah... I'm sowwy mummy."

"Don't apologize to me, Sweetie."

"I sowwy mum. Cam you forgive me pwease?"

"Yes, Sweetie," Mickie says and hugs Rain.

Jackson then comes in. "Mama... Is you okay?" I smiled at him and gestured him over.

"I'm fine, Honey, but. I think we should go right now." I thought for a moment. "Or maybe, Aunt Mickie and Aunt Anna will let you stay the night. Why don't you go ask them?" I say, putting him down. He grins and runs over to them, asking them.

Anna looks at me, silently asking what I'm going to do and if I'm okay. I only sigh and nod. I'll tell her later. Jackson comes back over grinning. "They says I stay. Can I mama? Can I?" he asks, jumping up and down. "Of course. You should still have clothes over here."

He runs over to Rain and drags her back outside. "Thank you, Anna and Mickie. I think we should go now. I'll be back over sometime tomorrow. Love you guys." I get up and hug them both before walking outside and to the car, leaving Nathan to say goodbye.

He gets in and drives home. He tried to talk on the way home, but I shush him. I don't wanna blow up and cause us to get in an accident.

When we get home, I get out and head inside. Nathan follows.

"Babe,-" "Why didn't you tell me?!" I yelled, cutting him off. Goddamnit Nathan. How dare you do this to me. "I didn't know I was supposed to!" He fired back at me. As I ran my hands through my hair, I began pacing the living room, trying to calm myself. "Bab-" "No! Just- shut up. Don't say anything." I glared at him, he doesn't get to make this choice for me. He didn't even talk to me about it. I stopped pacing and went to the bedroom to fetch my phone and pack a small bag for me and Jackson. He followed. Of course he did.

I put clothes and my phone charger in the bag. I call Anna back. "Anna, I know just left but, can I come over?... Okay. I'll be over in a few. Thanks. Love you." I hung up and finished packing both bags. "Woah, wait," he said.

"What?" I snapped. I'm not dealing with this right now, and there's no way I'm staying here after today.

"You can't seriously be packing a bag for you and J. He's my son too! I have every right to see him as you do, and even more now that I'm leaving Thursday! He needs his father!" I stopped putting stuff in the bag and looked at him. "Well maybe his 'father' should've thought about that and talked to his wife before he made that stupid decision. I mean seriously Nathan! You know I would've supported you. You know that, but what pisses me off is that you didn't even talk to me about it! I had no clue!" I can tell my face Is red and I know there are tears. I can feel them. "When?" I asked. "When did you enlist and when were you planning to tell me? after you just disappeared? What am I supposed to tell Jackson?! He'll wonder and I don't want him to have the childhood Anna had. It fucking sucks!"

"Goddamnit! Just let me speak!" He yells. I look at him. "I enlisted about four months ago. I was going to tell you so many times. But. I couldn't. As for Jackson, I don't know. You'll come up with something. I know you will," he says.

I stare at him. "How dare you. How fucking dare you!" I grab both my bag and Jackson's and go downstairs to my car. he stays in the bedroom. I start the car and head back over to Anna's. I have to stop a couple times because I just break down.

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