HIM and My WHYS [ PerthSaint ] Unedited

Prologue

" Summer after high school when we first met
We'd make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th birthday we got matching tattoos... "

I woke up hearing that song on the radio again. I hate it. I hate that it's too relatable. I hate that the song itself hurts me. I hate being hurt.

Before I break down again, I decided to just turn off the radio. That's better.

I headed to my study table near the window. It's a sunny day. Then the blue notebook on the right side of my table caught my attention, as usual. In the last 3 years I never dared to open it again. I just placed it there, always close to me as possible.

Next to the notebook is a calendar with a blue circle on the date today. A small smile appeared on my face but I'm not happy.

" It's been 3 years. " I murmured to myself.

My attention went to the notebook again. With all my courage I slowly pick it up with my shaky hands. It's still the same, it never changed even though it's left alone for so long.

It never changed.

I caressed the plain front page of the book. A deep sigh left my body before I open the first page. A smile formed on my face again, this time I don't know if it's a genuine one or a sad one.

The memories I tried to forget came racing throughout my head like it's still fresh.

I didn't even notice the tear that left my left eye and come running down my cheek. I can't be crying. It's been a long time, why am I crying?

I shouldn't but I can't stop it.

The supposed to be forgotten memories brought the pain back.

The supposed to be forgotten memories brought the feelings back.

The supposed to be forgotten memories brought him and my whys back.

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Disclaimer: The video above isn't mine. Credits to the original owner.

   The starring characters are not my ownership. This is mere fanfiction and all the contents are inventions. Do not take it seriously.

   This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to other plots, actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

   I would like to apologize for the future mistakes I'll make on the book. I promise to avoid it as much as I can.

Author's Note:
I know, I know. My first story isn't even finished yet and then here I am making another book lmfao. I don't know really, I just woke up one day and thought of this awesome plot (well for me ofc it is) then I told myself that why not make another story about it? And yeah that's why I am making one T.T I actually told my friend about it and it was her idea to put that disclaimer above. Actually this will just be a short story, maybe just 15 chapters or less than 10. Anyways, I hope you all will enjoy it. I hope T.T

-Privè