HIM and My WHYS [ PerthSaint ] Unedited

Chapter 6: Fast Forward

S A I N T

It's my last year being a Senior High School student. Yes, a year had passed already. Many thing's changed yet my feelings for him is still the same. Who would've thought that I'll be this head over heels inlove with him. Tsk!

Throughout the whole year, I managed to ignore him by simply making sure he won't see me anywhere. Well, it's not completely ignoring because I was also stalking him everywhere and making sure he won't see me. Which is a bit creepy and weird, I know. It's my only choice.

It's not that hard though because he would simply be at the library or at the football field. And I'll be hiding in the corners while staring and admiring him. It became a habit actually. I don't know why he didn't notice my presence but thank god he doesn't.

Win, Mean and I are at the cafeteria having lunch. Win was busy telling stories about his morning to us even though Mean and I are obviously not listening he doesn't care and just kept on talking. Mean was busy finishing his lunch while I was spacing out and staring at the cafeteria's entrance.

I dropped the spoon that I was holding when I finally saw the face that I was waiting. He looked mesmerizing, as always. He didn't spare me a glance because he was busy talking to Zee but his presence alone made my heart beat faster and light up my mood. A small smile formed on my face.

" Damn, the effect he has on you is really something Saint. " Mean said while his one eyebrow raised in amusement.

" Tell me about it. He looks like a freak smiling on his own. " Win said while giggling. It made me snap my head on him while glaring. I heard Mean chuckled a bit so I glared at him too.

" Aren't you tired admiring him? It been like a year already. " Mean asked with an annoying smile on his face.

I smirked but before I could even answer Win already answered for me.

" How can he be tired? He's been stalking him like a freak. If there's anyone who would be tired here, it'll be Perth. " He said while smirking at me. My face was painted of confusion because of his last sentence.

" Why would he be tired? " I asked in confusion.

" Because he's been running on your mind all throughout the year. " He said and laugh at his own lame joke. Mean laughed as well.

" How the hell did you find that funny? " I asked Mean while glancing at Win with a glare.

" Unlike you who only thinks of Perth, Mean has a very well functioning humor. " Win said while smiling at me amusingly. I glared at him more.

" Stop teasing him Win, Saint looks like he's about to kill you. " Mean said jokingly. Win just shrug and giggle a bit.

I rolled my eyes on them. " I hate you both. " I told them, they only answered it with laughter.

" So what's gonna be your plan? " Mean suddenly asked.

" Just the usual. " I answered and bit my apple.

" Seriously Saint, aren't you tired? You've been inlove of him for about a year already. Why don't you confess or move forward or something. " Win said like he was annoyed.

I eyed him and said. " Aren't you tired convincing me to confess too? And for your information I wish it's that simple Win. "

" No and don't look at me like that. It's you who said you're not afraid of confessing and being hurt about a year ago. " Win said with a smirk.

" It was a long time ago. " I felt my voice fell as I look away from Win's cheeky grin.

Believe it or not I really tried to confess but it didn't end well. I was shaking and blushing the whole time. I even felt like throwing up in front of him, which luckily I didn't. I just ended up running away and promised myself to never do that again. It's just an embarrassment at it's finest.

I learned that I wasn't brave enough to confess to him even though I was brave enough to be hurt. So I ended up stalking him instead, which turned out to be my best option. I got to appreciate and see him more without me ending up getting embarrassed.

" Right, you chickened out the last time but it's understandable. What I meant is, it's the last school year Saint. It maybe the last year you'll ever see him. How about make a move? " Win explained.

" You know what, Win is right for once. " Mean agreed.

" No, I'll just end up embarrassing myself again. " I disagreed.

" But- " They were about to protest when I cut them of by raising my hand.

" No but's. No one can change my mind. " I told them which they answered with some groans.

My attention went to the cafeteria's door again. I saw Perth and his friends walk out. They stopped outside in front of the glass door. Perth waved at them and they did the same before they part away. Perth was alone and I knew where he is going.

" I'll meet you guys later. " I told them before rushing outside and didn't bother to wait for their responses.

I saw Perth looking for a book in the back of the library. I hid on the corner where he wouldn't see me but I also made sure he's still visible on my direction.

He grab a book with a title " How to correct your grammar " Is he failing English? I doubt but I heard it's his weakest subject. We're opposites. I am confident with my English. It's my highest grade too. I'd like to help him but that would be a bad idea.

He sat on one of the vacant tables inside this dusty library. Seriously? Do they even clean this place? I shifted my hiding place to the one closer to where he is but I made sure he won't feel my presence or even see me.

He sat there quietly and frowning to the book in front of him. He looks cute when he does that. And here I am staring and admiring him again. I really don't know why he doesn't seem to notice me or maybe he's just used to everyone staring at him. Maybe.

Just when everything is perfect she will show up again. Love. The perfect girl. His friend? Best friend? Girlfriend? Sister? Companion? I don't know. No one knows their relationship. Wherever Perth is expect that she'll be there too. I wouldn't call her a leach or anything because I knew that she's tutoring Perth in English. But it's just odd because she's always right next to Perth wherever he goes.

Perth's face lit up because of the sight of her, like always. If I was just a judgemental passerby I would've thought they were inlove and in a relationship but since I'm not and I will just think they're just close friends for the sake of my heart. I would be lying if I say they don't look perfect for each other, because they do.

There it goes again. The feeling that I shouldn't feel. I'm not in the right place to be hurt and specially to be jealous since I'm just his admirer but I can't help it. I can't force myself to not feel the pain whenever he looks at her with bright eyes. I can't force myself to not be jealous whenever he gives her all his attention. And I can't just force myself to not be envious of Love and wished I were at her place.

Pain is something I'm not afraid of feeling but too much of it isn't healthy for my heart, so like always I'll just walk away and pretend I didn't see anything.

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