Hospital for Souls

Chapter 20

I wake up at the same time that Jake does. Snake's body is missing, so he must still be in the Hospital for Souls. I look at Jake and he smiles at me.

"Well," Jake says. "What should we do Raven? Snake's still in the Hospital for Souls."

"We need to talk Jake." I say to him.

"About?" He asks in a confused voice, but I know that he has an idea about what I want to talk about with him.

"Jake, how do you feel about me and Snake?" I look into Jake's eyes to see the tears that are about to come. "Look Jake, I know how hurt you are, but we've been so much more distant lately. I just want to talk things out with you. I want to try to figure out what's going through your head and I want to know how you really feel so we can try to be the way we used to be."

"Raven, it will never be the way it used to be between us." I feel myself about to cry, but I won't let the tears fall this time. I've cried too many tears and I've lost so many battles. I'm tired of it all and I want things to be right. Jake has been there for me through everything, and he's never hurt me. Snake on the other hand has hurt me a lot but he's trying to make up for it. Deep down I know that Snake and I will never be able to work out, but that's the reason why I need Jake and me to work out. Jake will always be there for me no matter what, and I'm not ready to lose him. If I don't work things out now, there won't be hope for any of us.

I look away from Jake, trying to take deep breaths. Then I feel the bed shift and I turn around to see him getting his jacket on.

"I'm gonna just go Raven." He says to me. He begins walking down the hall, and that's when the fear takes over me and I go after him.

"Jake!" I scream at him. I jump off the bed and run down the hallway, falling on top of him and both of us falling to the ground. He's underneath me and I'm on top of him, tears now falling down my face and he sees the hurt in my eyes. "Please don't leave me." I say in a low whisper. Jake wraps his arms around me and instantly I begin crying into his shoulder.

"Raven, it's okay." He says to me in a soothing voice. "I'm not gonna leave you. I promise I'm not gonna leave you. Please don't cry. This isn't worth crying over. I promise you that I will never leave you. You don't need to worry about me leaving. I'm always going to be here for you and I'm always going to care for you. Everything will work out Raven, I promise."

I always had the fear of Jake leaving me, and deep down I still do, but when he makes his promises they make me feel less afraid. One thing that I always liked about Jake was that he never told my secrets and he always kept his promises. Snake on the other hand is still a good guy, but he just hurts me a lot more and sometimes he doesn't even realize that he does it. I feel so blind now realizing the truth, but I think I really need to get my friendship with Jake fixed up because in the end, he's the one that's going to save me from Hell and from my own destruction.

As I cry into Jake's shoulder, that's when I feel someone's hand on my back and they yank me off of Jake. I look up and the fear fills my body when I see that the person who yanked me off of Jake is Snake.

"What the fuck are you doing!?" He shouts at me full of anger.

"Snake-its not-not what it looks-looks like." I'm stuttering so badly. I feel so much fear inside of me. Even though I know that Jake is the better option, I don't know right now if I fear losing Snake more or him hitting me.

"You whore!" He screams at me. He throws me to the ground and the tears fall down my face. I feel Jake helping me to get back up, and that's when I feel Snake's fist making contact with my face. I fall back to the ground, feeling the blood pouring down my face, and then I hear the yelling.