Little Mix/ Y/N imagines And Preferences (Completed)

I Lost Her Forever

Y/N and Jade.
⚠️Contains mentions of self-harm and suicide⚠️

"5 months, 5 months since I last saw the love of my life all ended by a stupid fight. I sit in this shitty flat, reminiscing on all the good time that we had together. My tear-stained cheeks resemble how I've been feeling since that day.

One stupid fight about some dumb shit. That single fight did this all! I got pissed at her for nothing! Now she's gone forever! I lay in my bed, bottle of alcohol permanently glued to my right hand and a sharp weapon in the other. Just burying my sorrows and cutting my wrist for each time I did her wrong.

I just wanna go back to that day and change every single thing that came out of my mouth and so forth, maybe I don't deserve a voice.
Missed calls are the only notification that I get from my smashed up phone along with the occasional text message of worry and fear from my friends. My damaged brain is the one who is in control of me these days. But it's time for me to get this dreadful weight off of my back and finally see the love of my life. I'm booking a permanent trip to Paradise where there is nothing but pleasure and happiness.

To anybody whom reads this and knows the full story, I'm sorry for what I've done and now it's time for me to go. I love all of you and I'm sorry this is the way this all had to end." Is what I write on the blank sheet of paper, before I drop it onto the floor and step off the stool, ending my life and finally seeing Paradise and the woman who's life was taken by a car accident.

Paradise is the perfect place for somebody like myself. I did what was right and stopped everyone's care and love for me.