The Man Who Killed Them

Chapter 31

Bucky wakes up shaking and sweating at 5 in the morning. He had another nightmare. One of him killing you again. He reaches over to grab you, but you're not there.

"God dammit." Bucky says. He lays back down. Tears fall down the side of his face.

Every time he closes his eyes, he sees the image of him killing you. Sighing in frustration, he gets up and walks out to the kitchen for some water.

Your door opens and Bucky freezes. You walk into the kitchen and see Bucky leaning against the counter, with a cup of water in his metal hand.

Ignoring him, you grab a tub of ice cream and head to the elevator. You reach Tony's lab and walk in.

Tony's still up. Making adjustments to his iron man suit. You sit on a stool and start eating the ice cream.

"Y/n. What the hell is the matter with you?" Tony asks. You look at him confused. Tony sighs, "You had an amazing man. He loves you so much that he's willing to kill for you. And what did you do? You pushed him away. Like you do with everyone. You push and push and push, until. Hey. I have no friends again."

"Tony, I've never been good a making friends." You say.

"He wasn't your friends he was your boyfriend." Tony raises his voice.

"We never actually put labels on what we were." You mumble.

"You care about him more than you care about Sam. Hell. You might care about him more than you care about me. He's your boyfriend." Tony says.

"Well, not right now." You say as you shove more ice cream into your mouth.

"Fix it. Or I'll fix it for you." Tony says.

"You're no fun." You say. You hop off the stool and head back to the elevator.

Once you reach your floor, you see Bucky still standing in the kitchen. Quickly, you walk over and put the ice cream away. You start walking to your room, but stop.

Following your gut, you turn around and stand next to Bucky. Neither one of you say anything. Your left hand brushes against his right. Bucky grabs your hand in his and intertwines his fingers in your. You don't pull away.

"Why are you up?" Bucky asks.

"Nightmare." You say. "You?"

"Nightmare." Bucky says.

The two of you stand in silence. Hand in hand. All Bucky wants to do it hold you against him. Feel the comfort he feels with you. Hold you and never let you go. Reassure himself that he didn't kill you. That you're still alive.

Soon the sun comes up. Still, you and Bucky haven't moved.

"I'm sorry Bucky, I didn't want to hurt you, but I just need some time. With everything that's happened, I barely know who I am anymore." You say.

"I understand that păpuşă. Take all the time you need. I'll be waiting for you when you're ready. I'm not going anywhere." Bucky says.

You give him a kiss on the cheek. He smiles. You smile back before heading to your room.

Once you close the door, a small tear falls down the side of your face. You lay face down on your bed.

Later that day, your walking around town with Steve and Natasha. Tony didn't let you go out without them. Except the whole time they've been making googly eyes at each other.

"Oh my god. Can you guys just fuck and get it over with." You say.

They look at you shocked. You laugh and walk into a store. They follow. Steve sees something he likes and goes to look at it. Natasha follows.

You're looking at candles. Smelling them. Some are really terrible. Others aren't. A guy comes over and stands next to you. He offers you a smile. You force one back and walk away.

Now I have trust issues. That's cool.

There's a feeling in your gut that he's following you. You peek over your shoulder and see that he is. Quickly, you walk over to Steve and  Natasha.

The three of you leave the store. You glance back a couple of times and see the dude is still following you, but keeping his distance.

Once you arrive at the compound, you call Tony.

"Hey Tony. How the security system going?" You ask.

"It's still down. I don't know what wrong. FRIDAY has a bug or some shit. I'm working on it though. Stay on your floor and stay close to Bucky. Can't risk anyone getting you."

"Okay." You hang up and head to your floor.

That dude can get in.

Once the doors open on your floor, you see Bucky sitting on the couch. You walk over to join him.

"Tony told me to watch after you." Bucky says.

"Yea I know." You say as you sit down on the other couch and hold a pillow in your lap. "I'm pretty sure a dude was following me."

"What?" Bucky asks.

You look down at the pillow in your arms, "I was at this store with Natasha and Steve and this dude stood next to me. When I walked away he followed and when we left the store he kept following us. I honestly don't know if he followed me here." You say.

"I won't let him hurt you if he did." Bucky says.

You look up at Bucky. He's already staring at you. His eyes leaves yours and look at your lips. Subconsciously, you part them. The action causes Bucky's jaw to tighten. He looks back up at your eyes to find that your looking at his lips. Twitching his lips in a smirk ever so slightly that you can't even see, an idea forms into his head.

Bucky smooths his tongue over his lips before biting his bottom one. The breath in your lungs catches. You turn your gaze away from Bucky's lips and walk into the kitchen. 

As you reach for a cup, you feel two hands on your hips. Neither one is cold. Suddenly they're off of you. You turn around and see the same guy from the store on the ground.

A hand grabs yours. You look over and see Bucky leading you away and into your room. He sits you down on your bed and walks back out.

You follow him out. He walks over to the guy and grabs him by his shirt. Lifting him up off the ground.

"Keep your hands off of my păpuşă." Bucky says as he throws the guy in the elevator.

He turns around and sees you. You don't say anything and walk back into your room.