traitor reader x reiner

The fall of Shiganshina

y/n looked up to the sound of an earth shattering boom, and within a second their house was gone. Warm blood splashed against their face as they watched their mothers body crush under a massive boulder, her entrails splattering the floor. The world stopped.

*flashback*

"Mom I'm home!"

"Hello dear, did you get what I asked?"

"Yep, 2 fish and some corn. Sorry it took so long, those kids got in a fight again. Eren, Armin, and Mikasa held up the entire market place, the military police had to come and stop it."

"Oh dear, I hope their parents are giving them a good scolding."

"It's mostly Eren," you scoffed "He's always getting in to fights he needs to be saved from." You say as you lay down the groceries onto the kitchen counter.

"Hm, well it's none of our business what Eren does. Just try not to get dragged into their violent nonsense."

"I will Mother." You say with a nod, making your way over to your reading bench. Sitting down you take your book into your hands, flipping through the pages to find your place. "ouch" your finger slipped on the edge of the page causing the paper to cut you, you watched as a drop of blood gathered on the top of your finger threatening to spill over. 

"Oh my, did you get a papercut?"
"Yeah, it's nothing though, barely even hurts." you said with a smile, though that was a lie. It stung. The blood started to trickle down so you popped your finger in your mouth, letting your saliva clean the wound. 

"Here let me get you a band aid." Your mother gave you a warm smile, and reached toward the cabinet. You admired her, her soft eyes and long brown hair falling just above her waist. She was kind and gentle, unlike Dad. You loved your father. He raised you, and tough as he was he was still your father, but you could never wrap your head around why your mother would marry someone like him.

" Give it here" She said bending down and putting her hand out. " You pulled your finger out of your mouth, wiping it messily on your shirt before placing it in her hand. Lovingly she wrapped the band aid around the cut, "There you go, good as new!"

"Thank you."

"You're welcome dear, only the best for the birthday kiddo." 

That's right my birthday is tomorrow. I don't feel as though I'll be eleven tomorrow, but I guess birthdays never felt different. Getting older never felt like anything.

" Now go wash up before dinner, your Father will be here soon." 

"Yes, mother"

As you wash your hands you feel your stomach drop a bit, anxiety flooded over your body for no apparent reason. The overwhelming sense of inevitable doom loomed over you, but why? You thought nothing of it as you walked out of the bathroom and back to your book, opening it.

crash.

*present*

Your eyes widened as you began to process what happened, "Mom?" You stood up your voice wavering. You wiped your face of the warm liquid and looked at your hand. Red had been smeared over the back of it. Looking back up at what remains of your mother, all you could see was her hand sticking out from the side of the boulder that had torn down the ceiling just inches away from you. Your mind went blank, you just stood there. No concept of time or urgency, in that moment nothing was real to you. After who knows how long a sturdy arm scooped you up, you were knocked out of your trance. Screams of terror and pain flooded your ears. 

"Y/n! Y/N!" you looked up at your father, "Y/n we need to leave titans, they broke the wall." He picked you up and threw you over his shoulder and began to run out of the house. The sun burned your eyes as he stepped out side. Blinking a few times you looked around at the mass devastation. Tears welled in your eyes, "Mom she-"

"I know" your father said as he ran through the streets. He ran for what seemed like an eternity while you cried. The tears wouldn't stop running down your face, the events of what just happened playing in your head over and over again without mercy. Suddenly you came to a halt, looking up from your fathers shoulder your eyes met the most horrifying beast you ever could have imagined. The titan loomed above you and your father with a cynical smile. Its eyes showed not even an ounce of humanity, simply unwavering hunger. You felt your Dad swing his arm over you and your feet touched the ground. "I love you y/n, I need you to run and don't look back. No matter what you do, do not look back. Keep running until you find the evacuation center ok?" you nodded tears in your eyes, you knew what was going to happen. you turned to run as he stood his ground to distract the titan from coming after you. As you took your first stride the titan took a step towards you causing the ground to shake. Your hands instinctively went to brace yourself for the fall but were too slow. Your face smashed directly into the ground, a rock cutting a gash in your lip. 

"GET UP AND RUN Y/N" your father screamed, his voice hoarse with fear. You did just that, you ran. You could hear your fathers screams, but you kept on. you ran till your lungs ached. Further into town you could see a gathering of people waiting to get onto the evacuation boat. Finally you thought as you ran up to the crowd pushing your way through to the front. "WOMEN AND CHILDREN FIRST." The soldier yelled as you stepped on The only place you could find to sit was on the floor, next to a tired looking brown haired boy. You bent down and sat by him crossing your legs, he payed no heed to you his grey eyes trained on the floor. He looked about your age, but you didn't dare try to speak to him. It looked as though he had been through about as much as you and was not in the mood for chit chat. 

"HOLY FUCK, HE"S GONNA BREAK THROUGH THE GATE" You heard a soldier scream, looking up you saw a titan clad in something like armour.  Just as the soldier said the titan took a running start and broke through the gate. You winced watching the only protection you'd ever known crumble. The soldiers continued evacuating for about 20 minutes fighting the men that tried to force their way onto the boat, "women and children first sir, I'm sorry"

"LET ME THROUGH DAMNIT, I DON"T WANNA DIE PLEASE"

The ones that didn't fight just scowled as they watched the others clamor onto the boat. 

"BERTOLT!" someone called, the boy sitting next  you looked up and raised his hand beckoning his friend over to where he was. A blond boy shoved his way through to where Bertolt and you were. You moved over a bit to give him some room to sit, "thanks." he said sitting down, you nodded looking down at the floor. "Hey, you're bleeding" he said pulling a bit of cloth out of his pocket, "May I?" you nodded and he gently wiped your lip, as he did so you looked up at him. He had short blond hair and a defined nose. His green eyes met yours, "here you can keep this" He said handing you the blood stained cloth. 

"why'd you do that Reiner." Bertolt whispered to his friend.

"I, um, I don't know."

"You can't afford to see them as more than they are, devils" Bertolt said in a hushed voice.

"..I know." Reiner said in defeat 

You couldn't even begin to comprehend what they were talking about so you didn't dwell on it. 

The exhaustion of the day hit you, you eventually fell asleep to the rhythmic swaying of the boat and had endless nightmares of your mother and fathers death.