Fairview Ave / H.S

16

Sienna POV 

I sit in the backseat of Harry's car, with him a space next to me.

The windows are foggy and our chests are rising heavily. The car is silent, which makes me get lost in my own thoughts.

"We should get back, the roads look better." Harry says while cleaning his throat. I look beside me and see he is slipping on his pants and his eyes are steadied forward. 

"What was this?" I ask hesitantly. The only clothing I have left to put on are my shoes thankfully.

"I'm not looking for a girlfriend, right before college," Harry starts off saying. "And we just said we should've stayed friends, and friends don't have sex." 

He moves to the front seat and starts the engine. I feel frozen in my movements though because I don't know what to do or say. I have never done a one night stand, so I am not quite sure how to feel.

I soon sit in the passengers seat beside him, and try to fight off how sick to my stomach I  suddenly am. The only other person I had sex with was Logan. I certainly never thought I would have sex with Harry again taking into consideration the last two years.

"I'm not looking for anything serious either." I comment, which is the truth. I am going to college in Oregon, which is obviously across the country. No need for a relationship if long distance is going to kill it. 

"At least that we can agree on." Harry mutters under his breath. "Lets just pretend that didn't happen." 

I roll my eyes by his comment and sit up straight in my seat. "Do you think a random hookup is going to make me get all attached or something? You don't have to say lets pretend it didn't happen, if you don't want it to happen again." I state. My tone is uneasy because I am offended. Right after he finishes I am suddenly shit to him again. 

"Why are you getting all grouchy?" Harry asks, scoffing. "All I am trying to say is that, this shouldn't be a pattern." 

"What, fucking?" I ask, furrowing my eyebrows. His eyes meet mine and he sighs. 

"Friends with benefits. I don't wanna do that with you." He reiterates. 

"Who said we were going to start?" I question, raising one eyebrow towards the boy beside me who now looks tense.. 

We soon end up on my block and I see no one is home at my house. My Mom is probably picking up my brothers birthday cake for tomorrow, and well my Dad, he's always MIA. 

Harry parks in his driveway and turns off the car. 

"Well, thank you for the ride," I say with a sigh. "The car ride at least." I  joke which makes his eyes roll. 

"I forgot how funny you were." Harry mocks sarcastically.

"I forgot how rude you were." I retort in the same joking manner. I grab my bags under my feet and leave his car.

I am obviously going to have to tell Harper and Ellie--I need moral support. It is not like something ground breaking happened, but I don't know whether to feel like a whore or not. I don't do casual sex, so a lot of confusion is now surrounding my heart.

***

Harper told me there was a party tonight. Not at Bens house, at someone else's house and it is supposed to be fun. 

She said the guys house has a bouncy castle, a water slide, and a bunch of summery fun. I translated that into a kids party with alcohol by what she told me would be in his back yard.