1D Sad Imagines

Niall Horan

I watch the crowd with sorrow feelings that I couldn't help myself with . In this very place we first time lays each on each other .

I fall in love with her on the first sight . It was crazy I know but could you blame me ? She is standing there , shine like a diamond , managed to pull my eyes on her all the time .

She is different like others . I still remember when we finished our concert for Up All Night , we were mobbed by the fans . One girl came to me and I guess he wants to hugged me but I was wrong .

She claimed loudly that she wants to hug Louis , not me . I was crash inside but I keep up my smile . Soon I know I was being hug by Y/N . I was shocked , so do Louis and the girl .

She pulled away , smiling up at me and said " I don't mind hugging you if nobody else wanted too . " . I know she directed it towards the girl but she never confessed it to me , not even on her last breath .

We stay in contact afterwards . She is like my personal angel . She showed up at our shows if she could and she never forget to hug me everytime we meet .

She knows about my insecurity so she will always sent texts to me every morning , telling me how handsome I am . With her texts , I start to gain more confident .

The friendship blossom into love as I found it was hard to stay away from her everyday . She was getting jealous and the boys keep teasing her about it until one day she blurted out to Louis saying that she indeed in love with me .

It was the day that I will never forget . My days getting better and better since then with her by my side . She is always there , supporting me through every hates I received .

Everytime she caught me looking into some hate tweets , she will scolded me like a child . She always told me that I deserve much more than those hates and I believed her .

Take Me Home , Midnight Memories is out and One Direction is getting stronger but she is getting weirder . She will show up late , didn't pay attention to me like she always did . When I asked , she said she is tired .

We were planning on our fourth album when she is missing completely one day . I came to her house and she is not there . I tried to contact her but it went through voicemail .

It was my mistakes that I yelled at her the next morning , claiming she is cheating on me . Guess what she did ? She just look down at her lap , refused to say any words .

I let the anger control my next moves when I said that I'm breaking up with her . Her head snapped up to meet my gaze as tears are threating to spill away but she managed to hold it back .

I was expecting her to say anything just for me to not breaking up with her but she just said one sentence that I will never forget my whole life even if I tried .

I am doing this for you since the day I hugged you for the first time .

She stand up , not bother to spare me a second glance as she exited my house . I was heart-broken but I faked it . For the first time after such a long time , I fake a smile everytime people asked me about us .

Media claimed she is seeing someone and I was broken even more . As a revenge , I started to date lots of models until I lost counts . I realized I was wrong when I stalked her one night and saw her tweet .

@Y/T/N : nobody knows the reason why but I am happy when he is happy .

It makes no sense to me and all I want to do is go and find her , demand her to tell me the truth but I let my ego stopped me from doing what I should have done .

We finished our Where We Are Tour and just released our album Four along with our book Who We Are when her brother came to see me . He said nothing but throw a punch on my face , throwing an address at me afterwards .

I was bugged with the incident for two days until I let the curiosity wins . Late night I was speeding on the highway , not caring if I get some speeding ticket . All I want right now is to see her smile again .

Stopping at the address I realized it was an hospital . I made my way inside and I asked the nurses her name . She showed me the way with her sorry look . I never bothered with it at first but later I know why .

She is laying there , helpless as all the tubes is connected to her body . She is no longer the happy beautiful Y/N I have ever known and the sight just killed me .

Blaming myself up , I rushed to her side . Slowly she opened her eyes when I keep whispering her to do so and I realized the light inside her eyes is no longer there . Only black dull eyes staring back at me .

" You came . " shocked clearly on her tone as she gave me a smile but it was never the same .

" Sorry you have to see me like this . " Nothing more hurt than seeing her like this , whispering those words weakly . It was me who should say sorry , not her .

We talked about our old time when suddenly she cried . When I asked her what's wrong , she just shocked her head .

" I'm sorry I-I couldn't grow old with you . I'm sorry I-I have to leave you like this . " her sound make such a rapid beating and I press the panic button .

The doctor almost throw me out from the hospital because I refused to leave . Her hand held up to reach mine and I intertwined it together .

" I-I love you Niall . I-I'm sorry . " then she is gone . I just witness the girl that I loved passed away . I was crying mess until they have to called up my other bandmates to take me home .

Few months later , another tour and here I am , still wishing I could turn back time and makes things better . I wish I could speak to her in the better way . I wish I could let my love towards her win and found out about her cancer early .

I wish I was there to help her get along all the pain like she used to do for me . I wish I could be much better boyfriend for her than I did these past years .

I learnt that she did all this because she doesn't want me to know about her pain . She took all the blame , swallow all the hate while I was out there , spending my times with those models when I should be with her .

What has be done is done . I realized that all the money couldn't make things better and she will always be the girl that loved me . Slowly I look up at the sky , with blurry vision and whisper those three words we used to say to each other .

I love you .