1D Sad Imagines

One Direction

30 years ago , I made a promise . A promise that I can't bare to forget even I am now 54 years old . A promise that I never forget even I turn out falling in love with someone else .

I'm not sure how many of us keep those promise now but I am not going to be the one that break it . We said we will stick together till the end and I never ever once forget about those 5 boys I loved till this day .

My kids are here with my grandchilds today to celebrate my birthday . I don't looking forward to celebrate my age but I am looking forward to tell them a story . Story of my life .

I keep smiling , hugging my blood when they wished me a Happy Birthday . Each one of them never forget about it and never fail to give me some presents . Not that I want them too .

" So , you said you want to tell us something . " Scarlette , my oldest daughter sit besides me before linking our hand together .

" Yes . Could you please get me the box that I left at the stair ? " Scarlette wants to get up but her husband stop her .

" I'll get it . " he is jogging towards the stair and take the box as we waited for him .

" So , what is this all about ? " Thomas , my youngest son asked with curiosity . I don't blame them tho . I never mention anything to them .

" Here you go mom . " Scarlette pass me the box and I place it on my lap . Smiling , I glance down at the box and the memory come flooded my mind .

" When I was 20 , I fall in love with not one but five boys . " I admitted as the room is filled with gasps .

" 5 boys ? " Darcy , my second daughter asked .

" Too many I know . They are in this band called One Direction . I was young at that time and people keep telling me it was just some stupid crush . Stupid crush don't mean forever but I proved them wrong . Until this day , my love towards them never changed . " I open the box , taking out all of their albums and pass it for my children to see . From 5/5 until 4/5 .

" I wasn't very popular at that time . People keep bullying me until I couldn't take it anymore . I started to cut because for me , cutting makes the problem go away . " I admitted , pulling myself together . It was never an easy topic for me but I promised .

" When I finished my high school , I thought it was over but I was wrong . I end up working at the same place with two of my bullies and the cutting continue after I stopped for two months . " my children is still all around me , putting their hands on my lap and shoulder . My grandchild remained on their spot , being such a good kids .

" One day , One Direction is formed and I started to fall in love with them . The love continues and I keep my hopes high that one day I will meet them . It takes 2 years for me to finally got the chance to meet them and it was the happiest moment of my life . "

I took out the pictures of me and the boys . Liam is carrying me on his back . Harry is hugging my side , kissing my cheek . Louis make faces , hugging me from behind . Niall being gentlemen , give me another piggy ride picture with him while Zayn put on his handsome face , hand around my waist .

" Liam is the first one that notice the cut on my wrist . He took my hand , kissing the scar before whispering how beautiful I am . Liam's weird attitude attracted the boys attention and soon , they were surrounding me . They started to singed What Makes You Beautiful's chorus that cause me to cried . " I was smiling from ear to ear from the happy feelings that conquer my body .

" I was ashamed at first when Liam noticed the cut . I thought he is going to think that I am just some trouble girl but I was wrong . They turned out to be the most supportive people I have ever meet . Harry even make me promise that I will stop cutting and I did keep it until today . " I paused , taking a deep breath .

" 25 March 2015 came and I never thought I will cry that hard . Zayn decided to leave the band and it just broke me . I never stop crying everytime I listened to their songs with Zayn's solo in it . I thought this is the end of One Direction but again , the boys proved me wrong . " glancing at each of my children , I saw Darcy and Scarlette already crying while the boys try to compose themself .

" I was mad at Zayn at first until I found this picture on twitter . " pulling out another picture , I pass it to Darcy since she held her hand out .

It was a blur picture of Zayn crying at his last concert with the boys and the picture of 4 boys remaining as One Direction sitting as they were facing the crowd . Words and promises written on the picture to show how much the boys has sacrifies for us .

" I found out Zayn become media's punching bags for years and keep swallowing the pain just to make us happy but human has his limits and Zayn has reach his . Only then I realized how much the boys has done for us . What the cost they have to pay just to make us smile every single days . " a warm tears greeted my cheeks before I wipe it away .

" The boys keep going stronger with 4 members and they teached us not to hold grudge against Zayn because it is what he wants . I made a promise I will tell my children how they changed my life and here I am , making it came to life . " I take out the last picture of me and 4/5 at their last concert , staring at it .

I was trying to smile in the picture when I know this is going to be the end of One Direction . The boys are not doing such a great job either when their eyes didn't light up with happiness like it was used to .

" My and your dad have a small fight when I want to go to this last concert of One Direction . I was pregnant with Scarlette at that time and he is just worried . He stopped talking to me for three days but he learnt to understand how much this boys mean to me . They ended it with honor and pride . I still remember how they keep thanking us for being there for all those years . " it wasn't an easy things but we made it . We made it till the end .

" Where are they now ? " William , Scarlette's son asked as the others remain silent . I try to smile but I can't . One simple question and I am trying to hold myself from crying .

" They are in London now . " it was hard to talk about this boys . They are my first love and I would never love others as much as I love them .

" It was quite a story . " Thomas admitted , blinking back the tears .

" I want to meet them . " Darcy speak out loud , causing all of our eyes to fall on her .

" They are in London right now . You will have fly to meet them . " people said New York is great but all I want to do is being in London , near to them .

" Why would you want to meet them ? " Scarlette asked , sobbing quietly . Darcy gave her a smile , glancing at me .

" They have done so many things for our mother . The least I could say is thank you for everything . Do you want to meet them again mom ? " I burst out crying , leaning my head on Scarlette's shoulder .

" Mom , what's wrong ? Did I say something wrong ? " I shake my head , not wanting her to blame herself .

" No baby . No . It's just I don't know if that possible . " I admitted , trying to stay strong but it was hard that I imagine .

" But why ? " Darcy asked again . Didn't get my point .

" It's because .. " I paused , glancing weakly at each and every single one of them .

" Because Niall passed away two days ago at his 52's birthday and he is the last member of 1D that still alive . If you still want to meet them , you will have to go to their graveyard . "

There is a reason why I tell them this story today . They keep leaving me , one by one and I know my time is coming soon . Don't want to break my promise , I tell them the story of how 5 boys changed my life , making me who I am today .

Thank you Louis , Niall , Harry , Liam and Zayn .