Jeno chuckled, sadly, "I don't even know what I'm scared of... I just want to fix this or at least stop this..."
"It will... eventually."
"You honestly think so? Because I don't think so... the last time you said to give her some time... she started giving me letters...if I leave this for future events...maybe she'll drop something else..." Jeno contended.
Jaemin kept quiet for the next couple of minutes and Jeno was still mumbling something. Jaemin found it so incoherent and didn't want to disturb the flow which Jeno seems to have with himself. He almost regretted getting in this relationship minutes before they started this conversation but he was glad Jeno was opening up.
"It still feels as if she's in or around here... you know?" Jeno said, looking back at the bedroom window. He let out a sigh. "Do you wanna check?" he asked.
Jaemin immediately wondered if this is what made him check the entire house after they came back from his parent's house.
"Do you want to?" Jaemin repeated.
"I just don't want to choose her over you, you know? I truly don't want to hurt you, you know?" Jeno mumbled, ignoring Jaemin.
"Yes, I know," Jaemin replied, covering him with the blankets. "And we also know you're tired."
"Would you forgive me if I hurt you? I don't want to ruin our friendship...but, You are always leaving me..."
"When did I do that?"
"You are always doing that in my dreams..." he replied, playing with his fingers. "And I'm always leaving you for her...I don't want to do that, you know?"
"Yes, Jeno. Now I know."
"You wouldn't leave me behind?"
"Nope... I would if you wouldn't stop asking me hypothetical questions instead of getting some rest."
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#day50
What's your opinion on having a shot in the morning? Or a double?
#day50
Love me like you hurt me...so bad~
You on my mind... thinking about you all the time~
I don't want you to let go...no I don't want you to let go.
I swear, I can make it all better...
If you want me, I'll give it...all to you~
You're all see... baby you're everything!
♪♪
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Jaemin would never look at letters the same way. He wondered how Jeno could keep a single one of them with him like it was some sort of treasure while reading one made him feel like tearing it into atoms or burning them down.
"Thanks for ruining the way I look at the song, you fucking devil," he mumbled to himself.
When he walked to Jeno, he was sitting on the bed holding his head. "Good morning," Jaemin said.
"She was here again, right? Ah- my head fucking hurts."
"I'll make you some tea... you might feel better," Jaemin said, ignoring his question about Jiya.
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#day52
You are reading...aren't you?
#day53
Flowers are the best thing that has ever happened to existence. They are fragile...soft, beautiful. They remind me of you and your soft beautiful face.
YOU ARE READING
Watching Over You • Nomin
FanfictionJeno loved to keep track of weird things he experienced in his life. When a girl climbs up to this list, it leads him to connect the dots. The ultimate big picture makes up a big part of his future and he believes that the weight of the trauma in hi...
