"I see through those silent lies of yours, Liv."
𝐎𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐚 𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫, the girl who's known to be mute in school. No one knows why though, and she doesn't want anyone to know either. Only her best friend and this certain boy want to know why. S...
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When I pull into the gas station, I see Olivia sitting at a bench in the front of the building. I try to hurry and get out of the car before her to open the door for her, but she beats me to the door before I even have my seatbelt off. Damnit.
I smile as she puts her seatbelt on, happy to have her coming to the party. "Hi, Liv."
I see her smile then too which only makes me happier. She looks up at me, waving shyly. But, I see her red and puffy eyes-like she's been crying. Oh no.
"What happened?" She's confused why I ask. I don't ask 'are you okay' because clearly she's not when it's apparent she's been crying.
She shakes her way, her usual way to say nothing, but I see the way her arms wrap around her body. I know that move too well. All of my happiness from seeing her again leaves me.
"Liv, hey..." I say softly. "I...I know there's something-" She shakes her head, cutting me off before I can continue the sentence.
I sigh, not wanting to let it go but I know she sure does. I have to get her to talk about it eventually though, well not talk but at least admit it. I've been through it enough to know what she's going through.
I start the drive back to the party, back to Ashton's house, and the silence in the car is horrible this time unlike the other usual comfortable silences we can go into. This one isn't comfortable at all. It's so tense and awkward and saddening.
I think back to the day with Lexi, when she was being so fucking rude to her once again. I don't understand Lexi's problem with her, especially now just because I finally got the courage to talk to her.
'And you hang out with her? Of all people? And not me?'
What Lexi doesn't realize is I'd hangout with literally anyone but her.
'What could she possibly have that I don't?'
So fucking much. Unlike Lexi, Olivia actually has a nice personality-from what I'm able to get out of her at least. And she's actually nice, not constantly making people feel like shit or ever in fact.
But I think more specifically about the day Lexi had gripped her wrists so hard her cuts had reopened. Cuts from self harm...I so badly wanna tell her to never do that again, but I know it doesn't just work like that. Telling her that isn't gonna magically help her stop. I wish there was so much more I could do to actually help her.
'She fucking cuts herself, an attention seeker, and you hang out with her?"
That sentence Lexi had said made me so mad. I don't understand how Lexi, and unfortunately other people, can possibly think like that.
Then seeing Olivia crying, thanks to Lexi, god it just broke my heart. I never want to see her cry, never ever again. The only tears I want to see of hers are tears of joy.
