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Niara's Pov

What. The. Actual. FUCK.

I quickly ran to my computer to check my video, and as Corbyn said, it has just over half a million views. In less then 24 hours? i'm actually so shocked i'm at a loss for words.

I began to check the comments. Majority of the comments were really positive and telling me how i should make a career in singing.

But some were really bad.

'She's only using why don't we to start her singing career'

'Her voice is average and she's so ugly'

'Corbyn could do so much better. Don't stan her at all'

Well that's not harsh at all. For now i'm just gonna ignore it and hope it goes away.

This video getting a lot of recognition is giving me such motivation to write and sing more. I think i really want to sing as a profession.

Today i don't have anything to do so i'm going to spend it writing/recording music. If i keep posting then maybe i'll get noticed by record labels.

It's currently 3pm and i've been writing all day. I got up to get a drink, when i heard Gabbie and Lav come through the door.

"Hey girl how you been?" Gabbie asked.

I told her i posted the singing video and she loved it so much, but she doesn't know about the views.

"Ah you know just chillin, seeing how my video is currently on 600 thousand views" i said getting more excited as my sentence ended.

"NIARA WHAT NO WAY" Gabbie literally screamed.

She ran over to me and hugged me, even though i was lying on the couch after getting my drink, she still hugged me and is now just lying on top of me.

"You comfy there?" I asked laughing as she is layed with her head on my chest.

"Yeah you actually have boobs so they are like pillows. Anyways i'm so so so proud of you Ni" Gabbie replied.

"Gab i had no idea it would do so well, like i was just posting it for fun but now i just wanna post more"

"You totally should. Your voice is unbelievable Niara" I love Gabbie so much, she's so supportive of me.

"Well i finished a song that i half wrote a long time ago today, do you wanna hear it?" I asked.

"Of course i do!" She replied getting off of me.

I ran upstairs to get my keyboard and song book. I set up and started to play.

She stares at her ceiling once again with a hundred thoughts
"Maybe he knows who I am, probably not"
She walks down the hall with her head down low, scared to meet his eyes
Even when she hears his voice she's swarmed with butterflies
It's impossible to get you off my mind
I think about a hundred thoughts and you are ninety-nine
I've understood that you will never be mine
And that's fine, I'm just breakin' inside
He always walks the crowded halls and is blinded by this light
A girl who keeps her head down low and never shows her eyes
He's tried to talk to her but there's no easy way
'Cause every time he raises his voice, she runs away
Oh, it's impossible to get you off my mind
I think about a hundred thoughts and you are ninety-nine
I've understood that you will never be mine
And that's fine, I'm just breakin' inside
One day, maybe she'll stay
And start to head over his way
And one day, she'll look into his eyes
And instead of breaking, she'll call him, "Mine"
One day, he'll grab her by the waist
And force them to meet face to face
One day, he'll look into her eyes
And say that, "You're my only light"
It's impossible to get you off my mind
I think about a hundred thoughts and you are ninety-nine
I understand that you will never be mine
And that's fine, I'm just breakin' inside

As i finished the last note, i look over to Gabbie as her eyes were watering up and Lav was clapping.

"Gab what's wrong?"

"Niara that song, is amazing. Just listening to you sing makes me emotional i don't know why" She said laughing, wiping her tears.

Gabbie and I spent the rest of the day playing with Lav and talking about singing.

It is currently 1am and i'm lying in my bed scrolling through my comments. I see more bads ones coming in and i start to cry.

A minute later my phone screen lit up, to the sound of Zach calling me.

"Heyyyyyy Ni whats popping pretty girllllllll" Zach said slurring his words.

"Hey Zach isn't it like 4am in La right now? Why are you up?" i asked.

"Uhh the boys and i had a few to many white claws" He said slurring his words.

As i was about to reply i heard Zach's door burst open.

"Ayyyyyyyyy Zach what you doing my brothaa" Corbyn said as i heard him sit on Zach's bed.

"I was talking to Niara but i don't know where she went" I guess drunk Zach didn't realize that i'm still here.

"I want to actually no, i need to see Niara" Corbyn said.

"Corbyn bro do you like have feelings or something for Niara?" Oh this seems personal. Should i hang up? Pfft no obviously not.

"I don't know man but maybe. I need to see her again. I can't have feelings after only 3 weeks of knowing her. I'm gonna fly to Hawaii" Wait is he serious? No he's definitely just drunk.

"Jack is surprising Gabbie in like 3 days. We should go with him mannnn" Zach suggested.

"Bro we are so doing that. I'll tell niara tomorrow. Night bro"

"Night my guy".

I decided to hand up, since the boys are asleep. Are they actually gonna fly out here? I hope they do.

Does Corbyn actually have feelings for me? Ever since i got home, i can't stop thinking about him. And i don't know what it is. I need to talk to Gabbie.

I peaked in to her room to see if she was asleep, but she's not. She's face timing Jack

"Hey Ni you alright?" Gabbie whispered.

"Uh yeah i'm good, i just need to talk to you. If you have a minute" I said playing with my fingers.

"Yeah for sure. Jack i have to go, Niara needs me. Love you baby" She responded as she put her phone away.

I went over and got in to bed beside her.

"How do you know if you have feelings for someone?" She always gives good advice.

"Well sometimes, if you can't stop thinking about the way that certain person smiles, or laughs or makes you happy then that might be a sign. Or if you feel like you can't live without them, but not in a friend way. Who's this about?" She responded, playing with my hair.

"Um no it doesn't matter because i don't know what i feel yet".

"It's Corbyn isn't it?" How does she know?

"What how do you know?" I asked.

"Ni i'm your sister. I can always tell. I think that you and Corbyn both feel it but you need to take it slow and get to know eachother more. Don't say anything to him yet, wait until your feelings are confirmed"

"I love you Gab, thank you. Can i sleep in here tonight?" I asked

"Of course you can chic. Night love you lots" Gabbie and I have called each other "Chic" since we were younger. I'm not sure why.

"Night love you"

A/N
i hate this chapter so much. ugh.
n e wayz quick question:
do y'all support lera? i have mixed emotions lol.
this is unedited btw