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(trigger warning: very strong mentions of self harm, there will be a ⚠️ emoji when it starts and one when it ends)

Niara's Pov

It's been 4 days since Nevaeh and i got drunk, and i'm not doing so well.

Nicola has asked me to go into the studio for the last 4 days but i keep telling her that i'm sick. I'm not sick. I just have no motivation and feel alone again.

The boys come back in 7 days now, i miss them so much.

I posted a picture of Corbyn and I facetiming on my instagram an hour ago, and the hate i'm getting is indescribable. I'm on so many tea pages and confession pages.

It hurts so much seeing people that don't know you try to ruin your relationship or tear you down as a person for no reason.

⚠️ (self harm trigger warning)

It's happening again. But worse.

Right now i'm sitting in Corbyn's bath, covered in blood. It's all over my left wrist and the top of my inner, left thigh. I can't even feel the pain.

I just cant stop cutting. There's blood all over the bath. I'll clean it up tomorrow, no one is gonna be here anyway.

But that's where i was wrong.

I heard the front door close, and someone walk up the stairs. As i heard someone shouting my name, i started to feel light headed.

My vision began to go blurry.

And that's when the bathroom door flung open.

"No no no no no Niara"

It was Tate. She ran over and picked me up. I couldn't even respond, or open my eyes.

"Niara can you hear me, it's going to be ok i promise" Tate shouted.

And that's when everything went black.
⚠️

Corbyn's Pov

I was just sitting in back room at the venue that we are performing in tonight, when Jonah ran in.

"Corbyn it's Niara"

I quickly shot up and took the phone off of him.

"Niara baby can you hear me what's wrong?" I asked, worried.

"Corbyn it's Tate, i'm at the hospital with Niara"

And thats when my heart dropped.

"Tate what happened is she okay?"

"Corbyn i really don't know i can't see her right now" Tate said, now sobbing.

I gave Jonah back his phone and ran out to the tour bus. I quickly picked up my phone and my wallet and called a cab.

I was sitting in the back of the cab, crying.

The cab dropped me off at the airport and i've never went through an airport quicker. I don't care about tour. Niara needs me. I'm still not fully sure what happened her, Tate couldn't bring herself to get the words out.

As i boarded my plane and sat down, my phone buzzed. Shit. It's Zach.

zach 🤘
corbyn ⚡️

zach 🤘
corbyn what's happening
corbyn jonah said something is wrong with Niara where are you?

corbyn ⚡️
zach i'm on a plane back to La. Niara, she's not alright she's in the hospital with Tate but i don't know why. As soon as i get any updates i'll text you asap.