Better Than I Know Myself (2nd book)

Chapter 70- Garden Bench

I cannot believe that on this supposed to be perfect day is when they choose to do their little presentation. I'm glad that Alice isn't psycho anymore (Hopefully for good). But this is just way too much.

And what's worst is that that scene was how it exactlty looked in my dream. The dream I had last year; the night I swore to Mandy that I'd stay forever. That was one of the best and worst nights of my life.

When Alice showed up a while ago, I was sure that I'm gonna lose Mandy again.....

Mandy's POV

I followed Adam into the inner gardens of the beach which was the venue of our wedding reception. Actually our reception was nearer to the gardens than the sea side cause we didn't wanna get splashed by the roaring waves.

Shit. Okay. Yeah I'm mad. I'm mad that they just had to do this now. But my anger's already fading. But I don't think Adam would agree with me on this.

After a few feet of piercing sand rocks and tree leaves falling on my head, I found Adam sitting on one of the benches near the roses.

He ran a hand through his hair.

Okay. Now I'm here. What do I say?

I stayed silent for a few seconds, keeping invisible from Adam because I didn't know what exactly to say.

I wanted to say something as a cute greeting... But my head was still boggled and messed up from what was happening.

So I just walked up to him. I think he felt my shadow towering above him, so he looked up. His blue eyes glimmered in the sunlight peeking through the trees but his perfect eyebrows were knit and burrowed. He looks so beautiful when he's mad- a statement only men usually say. Well, I'm an exception if we're talking about Adam.

(Soundtrack play- Infinity by AJR)

I gave a smile and he reflected it with a smile as well.

"This seat taken?" I asked.

He moved over to give me a space and I sat next to him- a wide distance from the both of us- trying to keep my elaborate dress as compressed as it could be.

We kept silent as I tried to think of something to say. If there's something that 2 years with Adam has taught me, you should really pick your words carefully when he's mad; unless you want to get your eyes filled with Niagara Falls and your heart ripped to a million pieces.

After contemplating of what to say, I realized I was blank so I stayed quiet.

"I'm sorry." Adam finally broke the ice.

"For what?"

"I always make things emotional and awkward."

"I guess you got that from me." I chuckled and so did Adam.

"And besides, I understand you." I took his left hand and held it tight. "I'm not happy with what they've done as well. You just have a better way of expressing your emotions than me."

He looked at me and gave a half smile.

"I-" he leaned back on his seat, not letting go of my hand. "I guess I'm just paranoid. Especially because of the dream"

At first, I didn't get at all what he was saying. What dream? But then I looked back to what just happened and realized it perfectly fit Adam's dream one year ago. That night wasn't exactly that memorable but it's always been stuck inside my head. And I can still remember it perfectly.

"Oh. Yeah." I looked down.

"Come here." He said.

I looked at him in slight surprise. He smiled.

I leaned back as well and leaned my head against his chest. I could feel his heartbeat and his breathing. I could feel their synchronisity. It's like the sound of drums with a harp.

We stayed quiet.

I never realized how beautiful silence can be. Birds chirped here and there. The roar of the waves can be heard even from here. The trees swayed from the warm breeze that embraced us.

Everything felt calm and at peace.

Adam kept stroking my hair. But his eyebrows were knitted like he was in deep thought. I could feel his fear.

"I'm just scared to lose you, Mandy. I'm so tired of losing you." He spoke, sadness in his voice.

"That's not gonna happen."

He kept quiet, just stroking my hair.

"You should be thankful. I mean, it's actually great news that it was just a prank. At least you're not dead." I kid.

He chuckled lightly "Yeah I guess."

"I don't wanna go back there yet Mandy." He said and I looked up at him. He's like a vulnerable little kid that I felt strongly in my heart that I just gotta comfort him and let that fear go away. I can see it in his eyes . His eyes speak everything.

"It's okay. I like it here." I smiled.

He smiled back. "Don't you want to reunite with your rehabbed best friend?"'

"Mmm... No. I don't think so." I laughed and so did Adam.

He held my face and gave me a sweet and savoury kiss. I felt so safe in his arms. Whatever happened back there was instantly fading already.

"I love you." He kissed me deeper, sweeter....

I love you too.