Better Than I Know Myself (2nd book)

Chapter 48- I quit

Six days and counting...

Just four more days. Well, athough the doctor never said that she would wake up on the tenth day, he did say that there was a probable chance. Maybe it would be even earlier.

Tommy, Mandy's family and I have been taking turns in watching over her. Usually, it was just me. Because everyone was too busy with their errands. These last alternative days I was the one who watched her. I also decided to sleep here, bringing my least picked choice of clothes.

It was nice that they were all gone. It gave me more time alone with Mandy.

All I've been doing these past few days is, wasting the hospital's electricity. The televusion was always open, but I'm never watching. I keep imagining inside my head what would be her reaction when she sees me again... Would she still be mad? Would she be confused? Would she keep crying? Would she push me away and never talk to me again?

Well, if that happens, it's okay. It would hurt a lot but it's okay. I deserve it.

My phone suddenly buzzed inside my pocket.

I took it out and to my sarcastic surprise, it was my manager.

I guess it would be a good time to answer his call now. He kept calling me last night, nonstop. But I ignored him, pretending I  was asleep already. Even though I was just playing games on my phone.

"Sup." I pressed Answer

"Hey, how's Mandy?" He sounded more rushed than concerned.

"She's good." I glanced at Mandy who was peacefully sleeping in the same position she's been in since day one.

"Adam, can I ask you something?"

"Anything."

"What's this trouble that Jessica's been telling me?"

I rolled my eyes, smirking. "I thought she was supposed to tell you two days ago."

"This is not a joke Adam. What do you think you're doing?"

"I think I'm trying to have a real couple quarrel with my beloved girlfriend, Jessica." I said sarcastically.

" What's gotten into you?! Do you know what'll happen to your career if Jessica talks to the media?"

"Yeah, I think I know. Aaaaand.... I don't give a fuck."

"Adam you're not a kid anymore. You've gotta learn to take responsibility for your actions."

"What the hell?! I have been taking responsibility. Do you think I would've chosen my career over Mandy if I didn't care about my job?!" I stood up and paced around the room.

"Yes, I know you did. But you've got to be consistent in this thing. In Hollywood-"

I cut him off immediately, rage filling my veins. "Here we go again! Hollywood, hollywood, hollywood... I'm so fucking sick of hearing that. I know I'm in Hollywood. I know I've got a job to handle. Will you please shut the fuck up?"

"Adam calm down. I'm not the enemy here. Just listen to me. I know you're a bit off right now because of Mandy. I'm sorry okay?"

"Look, Mandy almost died! I really don't think I have enough sanity right now to care about what's gonna happen to me."

"Adam please! I'm just concerned about your career."

"No you're not." I sat back down the couch. "You're not concerned about my career. You're concerned about the money you're gonna lose."

"You know that's not true."

"I sure the hell do know that's true! I've been working with you for years. I know how you play this game."

"That- Look that's not even the issue here."

"Yes it is! Do you think that if you hadn't forced me with Jessica, I would be here in the hospital? Do you think Mandy would still have committed suicide?"

"Adam please, can we just get back to our main issue."

"We're already talking about it. You're my main issue."

"Adam-"

"No. You can go and have all my career for yourself, then you can go find another innocent star to ruin. And after all that,you can go fuck yourself. Cause I quit."

I immediately pressed End before he could answer.

I was already panting when I finished. I never realized how good that would feel. Well... yeah I lost my manager. And probably my job... But I'm not gonna worry about that now... All I want now is to focus on Mandy.

She matters to me most.

Not my future. Maybe not even our future.

Just her future.