Better Than I Know Myself (2nd book)

Chapter 44- Unconscious

Mandy was lying on the cold bathroom floor, skin pale and lips colorless. A bottle of pills was clasped lightly on her right hand. The sound of water trickling from the bathtub synchronized with my heartbeat's fast pounding.

My soul seemed to come out of me as I stared at her unconscious body.

"Mandy!" I immediately rushed to her side and placed her on my lap.

"Mandy, mandy!" I held her cold face.

Shit shit.

"Mandy..." I sobbed, tears flowing out from my eyes.

"Mandy- shit please..." I put her face against mine, letting my tears flow down her soft face.

I tried to shake her.

"Mandy, please...." I sobbed.

What have I done? She's probably dead because of me. Because I wasn't here in time. Because I wasn't here to take away those pills from her grasp. Because I was only here to hurt her.

I kept checking her face. She's not dead.

She can't die...

But...

She wasn't moving.

I cupped my right hand over my mouth, hardly believing what was happening.

I wiped away my tears and sniffed, shakily getting my phone from my pocket.

"911, what's your emergency?" A woman spoke over the phone.

"Hello..." I sniffed, hardly controlling my tears. "Yes? I need an ambulance."

I could barely speak.

I glanced at Mandy. She was still cold and pale.

"Okay sir, calm down. Where are you?" She sounded a bit surprised.

"I'm in George street, Cadmore Village in Downtown Hollywood." I could hardly remember where I was.

"Okay, we're gonna have our nearest ambulance come down there right now. Please stay where you are." She tried to comfort me.

"Okay, yes. Please hurry up." I sniffed, controlling my tears.

I ended the call and hugged Mandy tightly, taking in the time we had.

"Mandy, please don't do this. I love you..." I kissed her head and sobbed.

I knew she couldn't hear me.

I hoped she did.

Mandy....

Don't die...

Please don't die.