Better Than I Know Myself (2nd book)

Chapter 18- Concerned

Mandy's POV

(Soundtrack play- I'm not the only one by Sam Smith)

I wiped away the tears dripping down my face as I drove out into the highway. Trees and white road markings passed by rapidly. The clouds formed different shapes as I quickly drove by.

I didn't even know where I wanted to go... or where I was going to be exact. I just wanted to be away from it all. From Adam, from Hollywood, from this wretched place.

The red Ferrari behind me honked furiously.

Well, I am still in Hollywood.

You say I'm crazy

Cause you don't think I know what you've done

But when you call me baby

I know I'm not the only one

I frowned at the track playing on the radio. It seemed to fit my situation perfectly. Well, almost. Sam Smith... Adam really likes his songs actually, he told me once. He also retweets and favorites him on twitter. I would know cause... I sometimes stalk Adam. Well duh, I am his girlfriend. I got the right.

Ugh. No.

I can't even bear to think of Adam's name without twitching in anger.

I gripped the steering wheel tightly, my nails digging into the foam cover. Adam's angered and raised voice seemed to ring through my ears. His painful words seemed to strike my heart mercilessly as they kept on repeating inside my head like a broken record.

Emotions were mixed inside me. I felt angry because Adam had the actual nerve to be angry at me when he was the one who was clearly at fault. And at the same time, I felt guilty because while I was thinking about Adam's reason... I could see that it was somehow valid.

He was drunk...

I mean, he probably didn't mean it.

But...

No.

My mind is still not cleared enough for me to go back to that stupid guy.

A large gas station with dozens of shops and restaurants suddenly came into view.

I sighed.

I'm guessing I need the rest anyways. I've been driving for hours that it was already getting dark.

I swerved right and smoothly drove to one of the parking spaces in front of Krispy Kreme. I turned the ignition off and stared at the shop, panting.

I'm guessing I also need the food. I'm a woman. I'm angry. I have the right to eat!

I got out of the car, locking the car and walked up to the shop. I ordered a creme brulee, a random coffee by choice and sat at one of the open tables.

Looking out of the glass wall, I bit into my donut.

Oh yeah...

Food, thank you for always being there for me when I have nowhere else to go.

I guess what mostly made me mad wasn't Adam cheating on me. It was the fact that he said those added words. I mean, I was mad. I can't believe he had to butt in and lecture me about the way things are in Hollywood.

Well sorry then Adam! I guess a simple girl from a simple town wouldn't know how things work in Hollywood.

Sheesh! It's not like I don't have twitter or friends to not be updated about all the happenings in Hollywood.